Im just sitting here wondering pondering, deep in thought like I always am. I think too deeply, perhaps more than anyone really should. My deep thoughts get me into trouble..
The daydreams are dangerous. They lull me into a false sense of security. They lure me into a false sense of peace.
I don't have what you have, and I am starting to think I never will. So all I can do is absorb the energy from it, as if I could take it unto myself and live it through you and what you have.
Just once, would I love to hear someone say I wish you were here and truly mean it.. Just once would I love to feel the love between an old couple dancing to a love song, from Frank Sinatra, that are still in love no matter how much time passes.
I envy you! That is the truth. I wish I had that. Perhaps it will never happen. I'm thinking that that is what will happen. The truth is, there are some of us that will never ever find that kind of love.
As to why, I have no answer. I wish I knew why some of us are cursed or are never ever meant to find and keep that kind of love.
So I find it important to tell you that I wish I had what you have.. perhaps then you will really cherish it more than you do now. Perhaps you will really understand what you have and never let it go.
As for me, all I can do is keep on living this life and wish for this.. all I can do is to keep on wishing for what you have.
