Love through a boy's eyes

Chapter 2: Love is complicated

What was I gonna tell mom, she never wanted me to walk around this late, and I know how she hated lizzy's place.

"Bad things always happen there, I don't want you near that place ever again"

Oh boy, why didn't I listen to my mom when she told me to never come here again, it only seems like a month ago since I was last here, the time I got in a fight, it wasn't my fault, Tim Scott, was the one always picking fights with everyone, and I wasn't going to be a punching bag anymore, the place still has that awful scent, like a dirty old swamp only much worse. 

"Jimmy!!...Jimmy!, Where are you!!"

I heard my mom scream from the front door of Lizzys place, deep inside I didn't want to respond, I couldn't bare disappointing my mom, but I had to, holding penny in my hands, sitting on the floor, my mouth stretched wide open and I started yelling.

"Mom!!... mom, please come help me!!"

My mom came gashing into the bathroom.

"mom... I don't know what hap..."

I swallowed my words, I could see my mom didn't want an explanation,at least not then and there.

"Mom, Please help, we have to get Penny to a doct..."

And there my mom did it, the thing I was most afraid of, sometimes I just wish she would yell, but no, she gave me that look, that look of disappointment, still standing in the doorway.

Suddenly it was like someone stabbed me with a long knife,right through my heart, my heart was heavy, and when I swallowed it was like swallowing food which wasn't chewed properly, it hurt very much, and right there with Penny in my hands and my mom looking at me with great disappointment, my eyes got watery and I swear I tried holding it back but the pain was just to strong, my eyes were flowing like a old river full of salty water.

Come now Jimmy!!! this isn't the time to be sobbing, we have to get Penny to the hospital!

My body was weak, I was tired and helpless, but I looked at Penny, and right there I got most of my strength back, I just couldn't see her lying there on the floor, I picked her up and rushed to the car, placed her safely in the back seat and we rushed to the hospital.

My mom drove extremely fast, I never knew she had it in her, skipping every stop sign, I thought we were gonna die, but I wouldn't dare tell my mom to drive slower, penny was like a Daughter to her after all and I could only see determination in her eyes besides the disappointment. 

We arrived at the hospital and immediately I grabbed Penny with all my might,for a minute I thought I could take on the world, all the adrenaline rushing through my bloodstream made me a different person, I didn't want anything to happen to Penny, I couldn't loose her. 

Penny was the only girl I ever cared for, she was the love of my life and without her, happiness in my life would not exist.

I placed her on the bed that the nurse pointed at, it was an old bed, with rusted metal on the sides, but it was all they had, at least it was clean, as I placed her feet on the bed I went over to her ear, I wanted to tell her how I felt about her but I couldn't, she couldn't hear me so it was now or never, I leaned over to her hear, and there is was again that loving smell of roses.

"Penny, I cant loose you, I love you, I really do."

I whispered in her ear, a part of me hoping that she would hear me but the other part of me hoping she wouldn't.