My spooky

Chapter 9:

I want Oscar to be safe. I know he's locked in and he's the head of his people...but sometimes I just worry for him. People out here get killed, even the people who are normal. They get killed by wearing the wrong color and I can't see spooky as a monster and killing someone just because they're wearing the wrong color. I still remember how sweet and sensitive he was as a kid. The times he would run to my house because his father and his friends would party all night on every week day.
I look outside and try to concentrate on my reading.
I start to daze out and lose focus

"What the fuck Zendeya!"
My ears ring as he yells at me

"What is fucking wrong with you? Why can't you ever listen to me!"
He raises his hand and slaps me with force, my body hits the wall.
My tears start to come in and I fall to the ground. I felt breathless I couldn't breath. I tried to breath but I could catch any air.
I put my hands to my chest
Calm down zey calm down I tell myself.

"Look what you make me do! I told you to stop wearing those damn shorts!"
He drops to the floor next to me. He looks at me and makes that regretful look he always does when he gets in these episodes.

"I'm sorry zenny I'm sorry!" He cries
I calm down and stay on the floor. My arms hugging my chest. I need to leave, why can't I leave? Why can't I let go?

I shake my head and try to erase my thoughts and memories. I need to get out of this room. I can't I'm stuck. I feel the room shrink and I fall to the ground I try to scream. I try to catch some air.
I can't breath. I put my arms on my chest and try to breathe

"Hey zey." Jamal walks in my room and sees me on the floor, his eyes widens and runs to me

"Tell me what to do!" He grabs me and hugs me tightly.

"It's okay zey it's okay!" He keeps hugging me as I cry in his arms
I could feel my heart pounding less I could breathe better now.
He looks at me and cries.

"Sister what's wrong? What happened?"
I look at him and I continue to cry.

"Nothing is wrong I just get like this sometimes."
My voice cracked and my throat began to hurt.

"I know you. This has never happened before you went off running with that ex of yours."
Jamal hated Justin.
I stayed in silence and finally calm down.

"Let's just go okay? Let's go get some ice cream? Invite the gang." I grab my keys and start to head for the door.

"You can talk to me you know?"
I stopped and didn't look back.

"I know Jay. Let's go."
I walk out my front door and my phone rings

Spooky: hola mi morenita. Let's do something today?

My negative thoughts rush in. I can't do this I can't be with Oscar. I don't want to make the same mistake. I ignore his message and turn on my car and start to blast my music
Jamal gets in the car and he's on a call with his friends

"Picking you guys up, be ready."

"Wait where we going? You know I gotta dress to impress the ladies." I chuckle yup I know who that is.

"Ruby just get dressed."
He clicks on them and looks at me.

"You can drive right?"
I nod and start to pull out the drive way.

"Zey I want you to know that I'm your brother. I'm here for you."

"Jamal please let's drop it. I don't want to think about it right now. When I'm ready you'll be the first person I tell."
He stayed quiet.
His friends didn't live too far from us.
Of course Monse was already there before any of them.