𝐚 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥 | 𝐝𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐭

28.

Being in California for the past five hours has honestly made my year, Miami was cool but there's just something different about being in LA that made me feel different in a way where I felt like I shouldn't be here.

Everywhere I looked somebody had a luxury vehicle, had on expensive jewellery or clothing. Something on them gave luxury, it kind of reminded me about Miami with the flashing cars and jewellery.

Then another part of me felt like LA is somewhere I feel like I belong, the lifestyle and the city kinds of my fits my vibe. It's not a fast city like NY but not slow like BR, it was perfect for me.

I took every single feeling, emotion and thought that went through me to decide on whether this was somewhere I would look into living I feel like in LA I could definitely expose my brand to a lot more people.

For me all I wanted to was leave Baton Rouge, build up my brand and move to a city where my boutique will flourish. Not to say that it wouldn't work in New York but NY was just for me to get back on my feet to be some place where I'm comfortable on being alone.

As I lived in New York prior to being in BR, I believed NY would help me in a way where I could gain my independence. However I do feel like I found a city where I could settle in but five hours in LA does not compare to 10+ years in LA.

I do have to sit on this thought and let my judgment take course so I can make the right decision for myself it wouldn't be any time soon as I haven't even found my boutique or began to design my clothes to put up in my store.

I am the type of person that likes to plan it doesn't matter what the cause may be I have to plan it out but I do not set myself at completely high standards. When I don't get to complete the tasks I had set for myself it begins to feel like I can't reach them and it makes me take a couple more steps to create the perfect plan.

So instead of putting buy a car, get an apartment etc, I put that as my end goal and put baby steps between them to help me reach the goal. That way I don't feel like I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself to get everything done.

It does have its disadvantages because if you don't get those tiny steps done it does push back other goals that you want to complete by a certain time, like me getting my car, I can't go looking for my boutique if I do not have my own vehicle.

It's not the end of world but it does suck cause sometimes you just want to tick everything off but you can't.

David decided that he was going to show me around to a couple places that people have told to visit, the whole city just felt like I was on a movie set, it just doesn't feel real.

The streets, palm trees, stores really made me feel like I was dreaming, I did pinch myself a couple times just to make sure I wasn't lucid dreaming or something.

We decided that we was just going to walk around until we got bored and wanted to find something to do, with the sun setting it put me in a haze where the silence consumed me, the breeze blowing didn't help either as it pulled me away from everything happening around me.

I have noticed that whenever I'm in public with David I'm more laidback and chill than if I was by myself where I have to always be on point. Because I have David protecting me it puts me in la la land that's why I really be in a haze.

And David be thinking that I am overthinking, half of the time I really don't be thinking about anything, I'm just there enjoying his company.

I felt David pull me closer to him and placed a kiss on my forehead "why you so quiet?" I shrugged my shoulders before I leaned my head back to look at him "hm, what you was thinking about?"