i am kind of introverted girl. i prefer to talk online rather than talking face-to-face or on the phone so i had several online friends from different parts of the world such as Korea, Indonesia or Germany and i have never imagined one of this friends and especially, the boy who is four years younger than me will be different than others. we know each other because of some silly reel about birthdays and we became friends right after comment section talk. he was a 16 year old Indian boy at that time and i was 19 year old university student. he used to love anime while i watched too many korean dramas. he loved cricket so much and time-to-time made me aware of the latest news of this sport. he used to send me lots of reels so i could understand him. sometimes we used to talk a lot about how to be a real man or what boys like in girls or what girls want from men. i used to see him as a little boy who wants to grow up. sometimes i felt like talking six year old boy who called me 'didi' all the time and that's why i made sure to make him feel real baby when we chatted.
-bellaa
-ohh baby! what happened ?
-didiiii
-oh baby? what happened to my little baby?
-nothing
-oh?
-i just like it when you call me 'baby'. you give so much girlfriend vibe.
-aww my little baby! you are so cute.
sometimes he talked about how men should be and was so curios about my opinion, my type of men as if he wanted to be a perfect man. when i told about it, he had never said 'it is impossible. there is no man like that'.
-i want smart, strong, a little bit cold but so soft to me. ahh height is important. he should be supet tall like 1.80-90 metres, dark hair and six packs muscles are also required. do you know someone like this?
-no. but didi i am going to hit the gym next year.
- why not now?
-i have to take care of my studies so..
-okay study well, my little baby. if you grow well, i will marry you. but for this you have to be the man i want. then i will introduce you to my parents.
-okay, didi. promise.
however fate is not always with us, it has its own ways to control lifes. people come and go like the wind blows. we can't hold anyone with us if they are not in our fate. they will come back no matter how if our fate is linked.
this little boy was still at school when we were good friends. i could clearly understand that he had to study more to get his goals. as i was older, i tried to be good sister to him and as i knew how hard to succeed in life and be top, i wanted to give him strong motivation to keep on. days passed in the same tempo, the chat room was like the haunted place, nobody talked extra, everybody was so involved in their future plans and daily pressure untill one day suddenly someone simply deleted their account and disappeared like never existed in the first place without any trace and left me dumbfounded and confused. once again, we can never keep our favourites by our side if they are not meant to be. the people who left us are just guests themselves : we can never know their purpose of coming or staying and it is not in our hands to measure their stay... or leave... besides, it doesn't hurt with time passing and we will be into our problems and forget these guests... so i let him go...just the way he wanted...i was sure this was the case for him too..
hi. maybe if you start reading, can you leave a comment, is it good or bad ? and plus the little boy i am romantising here really left some days ago and he is seventeen. we are not in love of course but it would be good if he stayed but he said he wanna focus on his studies. if he reads this when he remembered,
*little baby, you should have informed me before deleting everything you had. i believe you, you can get the thing you want and your didi wil be here whenever you want.
bella*
edited, 19.10.2024.
