Sitting Pretty bk2

31. Focus on the future

Lola had Leaford's driver drop Lucia off at her place. Lola got out of the car with her. "Lu.. are you okay?... you barely said two words coming back..."

Lucia looked at her. "I felt like my privacy and my space was violated tonight... by everyone.... Haydn, Draya and Kingston...."

"Girl, maybe you need to talk to Haydn... you just said tonight how things were going well.. I think that he was genuinely worried about you..."

She sighed. "I am yet to meet a man that I fully trust..."

"Yeah well that is kinda hard with the men that you're messing with... they're not so trustworthy..." Lola said, and gave her a hug. "Are you sure you're gonna be okay on your own... I feel bad.."

"I'll be fine... I'll call you tomorrow.." Lucia said and headed into her place, waving to Lola before she shut the door.
She stood her back against the door and she looked up at the ceiling. She should have been staying with Haydn tonight, but she just felt as if he had betrayed her. She did nothing wrong and to know that he was there because he didn't trust her, hurt her feelings.
She wanted to call him, but she knew she couldn't back down, she needed to make him understand.

Her doorbell rang making her jump as she was just next to it. She looked through the peephole and she saw her uncle standing there. "Uncle Raphy.. it is late!..."

"I know... but I also want to check on you... and heard you and Haydn had a bit of a set to at the club... he is like a bear with a sore head at the moment...."

Lucia let him all the way in. She looked at him. "Do you want something to drink?."

"No what I want is for yo to hear me out... you're playing a very dangerous game getting mixed up with both of these men. Either you wanna be with Haydn, or you want to be with Kingston... You can't keep fucking around with not of them..."

She frowned. " I wasn't aware that I was fucking around with both of them, I thought that I was in a relationship with Haydn... Kingston came up to me at Courtney's bar and started talking to me, the picture Haydn had on his phone of me and him, was once again him taking what someone else says over me... he always thinks of the worst of me... I-don't even know what makes him think that I'm that type of person..."

"Because you give Kingston time.... i'm not happy with it either Lucia... after what he did to me and yo auntie and he put a gun on he.... for some reason you're just okay with it... and you don't leave him at arms length?... I know the background of our family is a colourful one, but don't think for a second that you're safe messing with either of these men... You continue to wind up Haydn, and disrespect him the way that you have done recently, you might find yo self in a wooden box earlier than you ever intended..."

"I love Haydn... I want to be with Haydn, I didn't intend to speak to Kingston. I didn't even know that he was going to be there!... I just got annoyed with Haydn... I need him to trust me that's all... like I'm trying to trust him..." she said with tears in her eyes.

"Choose wisely...

"I've chosen... I told you... there was no choice, it wasn't even like that... you do realise that Kingston was there with Draya right?... and that bitch got it in for me... she is the one that will cause no end of trouble... she is lethal..." she told him.

"You need to speak to Haydn tomorrow...don't ever leave him like you did again... don't make a fool out of him...

"Listen to you uncle... does he rule your life... when just a few days ago he was telling you to stay out of his business...."
Raphael grabbed her arm and twisted her wrist. "Owww...

"Don't try and mock me okay... just don't, you should know better than that.." he snapped. He then let her go and left.

Lucia knew that she did the wrong thing in just walking away from Haydn, but she just felt like she didn't have a choice, she wanted Haydn to understand, that she was trustworthy, and he needed to show her that he was trustworthy too.

She sat down and picked up her phone. She sent a text to Haydn.

Lucia
Hey, can we talk. I'm sorry that I went off at you, I really like you but sometimes I feel a lil bit penned and I want to be free to be my own person. I thought if you understood that better than anyone else. And I wasn't there to see Kingston, but I shouldn't have to explain myself to you about that either not if you trust me.

She send the message and put the phone down. She had a few tears to herself. Being caught up in this type of life definitely was not what she was expecting and it was very hard. The last thing she wanted was to fall out with her uncle Raphy and that was the first time he ever grabbed her like that.
She looked at the picture on the wall of her mother and her together and she was around the age of 10. She missed her mother immensely, if there was one person that she could talk to about anything and that would be able to help her out in any given situation, it was her mother.

She was broken from her thoughts as her cell phone rang and it was Haydn. She actually felt nervous as she picked up the phone. "Hey." She answered quietly.

"You know the way you spoke to me in that club in front of people there ain't no one alive who has ever survived that!." He snapped.

"I just want you to trust me... when I saw you at the club I just felt like you were there to spy on me, watching everything that I was doing and I don't want you to feel like you have to do that... Kingston was talking to me but I didn't instigate it, I didn't even expect him to be there... but I shut him down quick enough..."

"I got the picture... yeah I jumped... but I wasn't gonna fuck with you, I wanted to fuck with him because it's about time that he learned to stay the fuck away from you... you're my girl... or at least you will be if you calm yo ass down a lil...." He said his voice still sharp.

"I'll be honest... I did wonder what it would be like to be with him... but, what I've got with you is different... and it is not something that I want to give up, it is something that I want more of... I understand that by me telling you that you probably hate me and would rather leave me in the dust... but I would rather be truthful with you than hide anything from you... that's how much I want this to work..."

"For now... I need time... the best thing that you can do for me right now is to stay the fuck away from Kingston. As soon as I am ready to talk to you properly and I got time for these games which at the moment I don't have time for... then we will talk.." he said and ended the call.

Lucia took a deep breath and sucked it up, there was nothing that she could do about it. He would make a decision and talk to her when he was ready and that was all she could hope for. She decided that she would take this time to throw herself into her new job and see what the future brought for her. She wanted to give her auntie and uncle a wide berth for a while to and just be by herself, this whole lifestyle had literally chewed her up and literally spat her out and she just needed a break....