DD ~ Digital Diary

Narratives

07-07-24

Changing the narrative of my life.

What if, instead of internalising that I have wasted the past seven years of my life, I start seeing them as the most transformative years of my life?

Times where I went through some hardships but came out on the other side of the shore, alive and breathing.

Times in which I learnt how to survive financial crisis.

Times when I went to such a dark mental space, physical things stopped mattering.

Times when I lost 10’s of kgs but also gained more than that reaching a healthy BMI.

Times where I saw a loved one go through the worst suffering and helped him through it.

Times when one day that suffering ended but so did his life.

Times when I can’t seem to understand the mourning process, where it ends or begins in the first place.

Times when I got to pursue the degree I always wanted, not from the college I wanted, but still, the education my heart desired.

Times when the tumultuous  waves tore me apart from my friends but me brought me closer to some other amazing individuals.

Times in which I made beautiful relationships with the most amazing circle of people.

Times when I got to have fun with them, have the most heartfelt hugs, lean on their shoulders when everything felt too heavy, laugh my heart out when I felt happiness in every inch of my being, look at the blue sky lying on earth, trek to the sunset point in heavy rain, roam around in streets or just sit and have a heart to heart sometimes face to face, sometimes through a screen.

Times when I experienced the most beautiful, pure form of romantic love.

Times in which I gave interviews and soon took so many interviews as well.

Times in which I became a part of various college societies and tried my hands at things I always wanted to.

Times when I became an author on online platforms weaving stories and creating characters I always wanted to.

Times where I got the opportunities of attending tech talks and events in the country’s most premier institute.

Times when I got to do an online internship during college.

Times when I traveled everyday for 4 hours to get to college and gave so many college exams to far off exam centres and finally, finally graduated with a beautiful farewell.

Times when now I will get to work as a freelancer with a French company after college.

These years have shaped who I am today and taught me what resilience can truly achieve. I am here, alive and well, despite every roadblock and hardship, and every moment when I felt I couldn't go on.

I am here, living this moment, having lived these past seven years.

Surely, things aren’t perfect. But that’s okay. Because the best is yet to come.