nick and charlie one shots

nick nelson depression day

Nick was lying in bed all day. He hadn't moved.

He lays in bed when he has a lot to process.

He cried a lot.

I came over to comfort him.

He wont tell me why he's upset. But i can imagine why.

"Baby i love you so much"

I say to him hoping to make him feel better.

"Oh sweetheart"

I rub his back under his shirt.

He's the type of upset where he just doesn't care. Nothing could make him feel better.

Its not like him to not care.

I put on his fave cartoon in hopes to cheer him up.

Ive rubbed his back for like half an hour now.

He's not crying as much which is good.

*Sarah walks in. "Hi sweetheart, how's he doing??" nicks mum comes in to check up on us. I play with his hair. it seems that he has fallen asleep. "he's asleep, he stopped crying earlier. he's probably exhausted i'm sure." 

Sarah kneels down & looks at him sleeping. gently rubbing her sons shoulder. Careful not to wake him. Thanks for looking after him dear. I know he can be very difficult when he's depressed. 

well I know u don't mind. Not difficult just intense, I know he can be a lot. 

"It's ok Sarah, I know he'll talk to me when he's ready." Sarah look at me with emotion in her face. "Thank you sweetheart. Your so good to nick & you help him so much. He's so lucky even if he doesn't say or show it sometimes. He really loves you charlie." 

I look at him. Rubbing his back gently again. "I hate that he has to suffer like this. Like why does he have to be the one to suffer. He did nothing to deserve this." Sarah starts crying a little. 

"I know baby. I know, i'm sorry it's just I hate seeing him like this. We've tried therapy and anything but it's just the way his brain works. We've learned over the years just how to help him when it happens & when he's getting depressed again & sometimes it just takes time & different things to help him feel better."  

"Especially with his father being so absent you know, having you makes him feel so much better. It's kind of hard, being a single mother raising two boys sometimes, even if they are old enough. Compared to when he was around. The emotional side of it has change a lot. Sorry, I just wanted you to know how much you mean to him." 

I feel slightly uncomfortable but it's quite nice getting to understand Nick more. 

"Well, i'll leave you two alone then. I just wanted to check up on you two. Make sure you both are doing ok. You are handling him very well Charlie." 

"Thanks Sarah" I start weeping a little. 

Nick does get a bit bossy or moody when he's upset, but knowing that Sarah said it's just his depression sometimes & not a reflection of me, reassured me so much. I was a little worried I wasn't a good boyfriend for him. But it's just part of his moods & I can handle that. 

I wake him up for a minute & tell him to turn around so we can have a nap together. 

I know a proper nap will make him feel better after crying so much. Especially if i'm giving him a bit more compression. Laying down with him & holding him so he feels safe. I press a kiss on his neck & hold his hands underneath the covers. 

Both of us have never been happier.