Last Letter For My Everyday Girl

II

"Before you go.."

Why don't we try it one last time? Why don't we have a replay?

Maybe, second chances were created because things usually get messed up the first try.

Maybe, if we redo what we used to do, it will be imprinted on your bones too.

Maybe, the next time, I'll handle it better. I can be better.

And maybe next time, you'll hold me again tighter and you will no longer choose to let me go.

Maybe, just maybe, we deserve another try?

It was a black tank top paired with a blue checkered polo, pants, and a gray shoes. Her shoulder-length hair was in disarray but not in a bad way. She was not wearing any make-up. Just a simple face with a press powder and red lipstick. Oh, and the black eyeliner too.

And no, it wasn't her eyes that's dancing in mischief when she stares at you. Nor her lips that purses upwards as if she's teasing you. Not even her smile that radiates the whole room. Maybe it was her infectious laugh as she says, "Di ka naman pala ganoon katangkad." Or maybe, it was her soft hand that she laid infront of you as she says her name and it was nice meeting you.

What was the first meeting like?

It was still like a vivid memory on my head. Everything about her is like a rolling film that's caught inside my head.

Maybe ganoon talaga di ba? You don't easily forget things. You remember every details and now it kept on haunting you every time.

Is it still a blessing or a curse?

First movie date? Insurgent. Festival Mall. M16, M17 seats.

I still remember what you wear. How you look. The way you smile and the way you shyly tuck your hands inside the back pocket of your jeans. How you cling into the strap of your small bag when I asked you if you want to have a coffee while we still wait for the movie but we ended up getting a milk tea.

Remember how we talk endlessly after? The way we sat on the park just like everyone else because that place reminds you and your friends. And how I think it was corny but I still did.

Remember that you invited me to meet your friends on the same exact day of our first meeting? How hesitant we were to call it off a day so you invited me home because your college friends are there and waiting for you. I did not only meet them but I also meet as well your whole family and your dogs.

On the very first day!

I went home late. We still talked a lot after. And still talks the next day. And the next. Until you become a part of my routine. Someone that we could not easily shake off.

It was so easy. Falling in love with you wasn't so hard at all. It just happens.

You're the love that I never asked for. You're the person that I least expect to. You just came without warning. And the next thing I know, you already had me before I could even say No.

And it was so beautiful.

I've got no doubts if it is love or just fascination. It was the surest thing I've felt. And if I have to do it over and over again, it will always be with you.

I like how calm your love was. At how comforting your hug. It's as if you're just that one perfect piece that filled all the puzzle I couldn't solve on my own before.

I never believed in miracles. Heck, I don't even pray. I don't believe in gods. Or in heaven and hell. But when you came, I started having that strong fear of losing you so I keep asking all of the Deities I know to just be able to keep you as long as I can.