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Prologue

What is it like to feel infatuated with someone who you shouldn't be able to? Your mind betraying you with thoughts, that even when sober, sound so hot. Your body physically betraying you, knees buckling and heart racing, just at the sight of them.
All of your 5 senses wanting to know, what is it like to be with them?
What does it feel, taste, see and touch them in their most intimate moment, like?
I'm asking this, how do I know if I hate them or hate that I don't have them?

Her expressions when she's looking at me, is this normal? Those faces are they of disgust or something else.

I gulp, feeling my body tense as I feel her walk by me.
"Hey, Michelle!"
Calling me by my second name.
I grip the camera with both of my hands, small hands that can barely cover the device.
"Hey." A simple Hey, nothing confusing nor anything.
I caught her reaction in a matter of seconds.
She looked disappointed in my response.
"Michelle, why the attitude?" She grabs my arm and that's when I knew I hit a nerve. I never know when she's going to react negatively towards me.
I look up at her, why does she have to me almost a foot taller then me. I roll my eyes and grin, "Rai, what are you talking about? Attitude?"
I pull my arm away from her grasp, that too hit a nerve. She clenches her jaw.
"Look, what happened that night was just for views, nothing more...nothing else."
She said that, but I knew it wasn't truthful. Her eyes said one thing while her mouth said another.
"Okay, and I understand that. By the way, 40k viewers was crazy! I guess we should make more streams like that. But hey, I got to go, I have to go meet up with a friend for lunch," I quickly shut down the convo since I knew it was going to get long if I didn't.
I walk past her and left to go, leaving her alone at the park.
She should be okay, he parents are near by anyways.

Why should I care? There goes my caring side, I wish I didn't feel so much empathy for her.

I go inside my Uber, there I felt my phone vibrate. A notification, Rainelis is live.

She's live right now? I barely just left her.

"Guys I have news, but you all will have to wait for tomorrow's stream. It is awesome news and I think this might change some things, hopeful for good. But anyways, I will catch you guys later on. Love you all!!"

News? What kind of news?

I felt nervous and kind of scared.

I'm new to their fanfic relationship (only 5 months lol) but I wanted to write about their potential sexual relationship. I'm writing this in English because I can't write in Spanish even though I'm Mexican. Hopefully I can write about jealousy and lust with them, because they have a lot going on iykwim.