It's always been him

Fresh beginning

I scrub my body until it's red. I feel dirty so fucking dirty

Scrub scrub scrub

I put aside the soap taking a deep breath in as I wash my body off with water

I step out

Lifting my head to see myself in the mirror and I look down at my body

I still feel his hands there I still feel everything...

My finger tips graze my waist where he was grabbing onto me as he thrusted into me

Why why can't I just be normal just why

Grabbing the towel that's folded on the counter I dry my body off before stepping into my room

what do I wear

Rummaging through my closet I pick up a long sleeve tight T-shirt and some cargos

It covers my body just what I want

I shake off the thoughts in my head before walking downstairs

"charlieeee" his voice rings through my ears as I turn around to see my brother standing behind me ready to tackle me to the ground

"No drew don't you dare No-" he doesn't let me finished before he tackles me to the down ground

"You idiot!!" I yelp hitting his back "get off me you psychopath"

Drew laughs and lets me go ruffling my hair around

I throw the middle finger up at him but a smile creeps onto my face and I start laughing

"my last year of school with you missy" Drew gets up from the floor

"I know but I hope this year is better than last year" I say go to grab an apple to eat

His brow raises in confusion "Why what happened last year?" following me into the kitchen

My eyes widen before quickly replying

"Oh nothing just want to make this year count"

No I can't tell him he can't know he will blame himself

He pause a minute studying me trying to find if I'm lying "okay Charlie but if anything happens you'd tell me right?"

"y-yeah I would" I take the apple biting into it. Drew nods at me as he finishes of his cereal

He slides his key off the counter into his hand

"Wanna go?" He flips the car keys in his hand

"yeah let's go" I turn around and head for the door slipping on my shoes before walking to the car

Drew steps out the house opening the car before we both sit in and he turns it on

"We are meeting Luca in the car park by the way" he says pulling out of the driveway keeping his eyes on the road as we talk

fuck Luca I- I haven't seen him since the party...

"Oh right okay" I turn my head to the side looking out the window before I feel drew tap my shoulder

"put some music on then"