You're Sheltered, Sunflower • Kakucho H.

announcement

miss na miss ko na kayo :(

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I apologize for not being active here. Straight to the point, I focused on my academics, so I had to delete this app and any other distractions, hobbies, and such. That's why I couldn't receive the notifications from you guys, but when I installed the app again after a while, I felt guilty for seeing all the unreplied messages:( As a matter of fact, I only had 5 days of vacation/summer break, and I'm now a senior high school student. I was a graduating student, so I really had strict measures for myself in studying. One thing is, I missed you guys so much and writing too. I had a massive writer's block and just couldn't find time for it. I tried writing a chapter, but all happened was just me staring blankly at the screen. I love you guys for the messages:( I thought my works are forgotten already HUHU, there are people who are still reading my books pa pala. Thank you for asking about me too:(, how about you guys? Kumusta na kayo HAHAHAHA

When I was scrolling through my message board, nababasa ko 'yung mga messages niyo, and I also saw my last announcement nung November last year; that was a tough month, and my message was genuine and true. Glad to be standing here well, parin. The heartfelt messages you guys sent through my socials are one of the reasons why I'm still here. It was really tough. Parang halos yata ng malas napunta sa 'kin no'n HAHAHAHA. Last year, in November, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. I tried pulling with any strength I had. I felt exhausted since I was balancing my academics and side hustles. I had no one at that time, and even worse, even writing couldn't help me, which I usually do. (Sa pagsusulat ko kasi minsan nilalabas hinanakit ko HAHAHAHA) Kidding aside, I'm glad to be standing here today, kasi muntik ko na rin talaga hindi kinaya. I do have records of self-harm. I was also diagnosed with a heart condition. I'm just taking my maintenance meds right now, so fortunately it's not getting worse or anything. It's really important to take care of your health, everyone. Kahit ano pang galing mo, pag tinamaan ka ng sakit, tuloy tuloy na 'yan. The constant rides to the hospital, clinics, bills, etc. aren't a joke. These are one of the reasons why I stopped writing, aside academics.

I graduated junior high school just 2 weeks ago, then I started senior high school just last week. I transferred to a new school with strict precautionary measures, especially the behavior of students online. Long story short papaikliin ko na, I set in private the videos that are related to my writing. I didn't delete it, in-only me ko lang. Ayoko rin kasi talagang i-delete :,). Nakakalungkot lang nung binabackread ko 'yung videos and 'yung comments niyo ro'n, nakakamiss lang. So on, ayoko ring may mag halungkat sa writing ko na taga same school. It is possible that a person might use it against me, especially that some of my works contain explicit contents. Another trap for me to the dean's office. Same precautionary measures on my old school lang din, I had to delete any sort of contents of mine that may possibly bring me harm especially that I was a former council president, although ngayon, it's a university kasi e, a known one. Guess niyo nalang. Their office dean disciplinary etc. etc. are more mahigpit, and the consequences can be having your latin honors forfeited :,). I don't want that to happen, especially that I'll be graduating again after two years. College na 'ko nu'n, and I'll be pursuing law! Anyway, kahit ganun, I still try to make a way to keep my writing, and to keep the penname "kiwitooth". I cannot promise a date when to update, but one thing I can promise, I'll never delete my books because even if the circumstances were like that, my works, my characters, and readers have a special place in my heart.

Thank you again, my loves! I love and miss miss miss all of you :(