Revelation

10th July: Pending

The shittiest thing about summer, is how the sun rises at 5 in the fucking morning. Morning runs aren't uncommon, and you have the habit of waking up that early on Wednesdays because Izuku and you used to run in the evening together. Now, he runs alone.

On the plus side, the morning air is colder.

The sun inches upward at snail's pace, rays dipped in gold slowly but surely coating everything around in the same hues of yellow. Colour seeps back into your world. Gradually, but inevitably. Izuku is a wrecking ball of vibrancy. You should expect nothing less of the future Symbol of Peace, but you know Izuku would still be like this even Quirkless.

That's just who Izuku has grown up to be, a cumulation of failures and nail-biting victories.

He'd always bring colour to your world, even when nothing but grey tones exist.

"Earth to Starlight!"

You snap out of your thoughts the second you bump face-first into someone's chest. You look up, and you still see grey.

Spikey hair, sharp eyes.

Kacchan.

You turn away, lip jutting out. "I don't want to talk to you."

"You're going to have to eventually," Katsuki says. Little puffs are exhaled. Standing there in a sweaty tank top and sweats, he looks too innocent for the betrayal you felt.

Right reasons, wrong actions.

Good consequences, bad with feelings.

"Izuku's gonna remember," Katsuki says, and if that isn't a 'I told you' so wrapped up in different words, you don't know what is.

"Why can't you admit that you did something wrong?" You say, folding your arms. He's twice your size and you're clad in nothing but old, ratty workout clothes that are soaked with sweat. You don't need a uniform for this. "Why can't you ever apologise?"

"Why can't you admit I was right?" Katsuki counters. "Izuku got somewhere, didn't he? He found something."

"At what cost?" You fire back. "Hospital bills? Who's going to pay for that? Auntie Inko?"

"You can't keep treating Izuku like he's made out of glass." Katsuki whispers, voice dropping a few decibels. His features soften, like he's trying to understand. "You can't play chess without any sacrifices. Sometimes you need to forfeit your queen so that your pawn can promote and win. Sometimes, you need to take risks and feel pain, because that's the only way you'll get anywhere."

You're not entirely amenable to his way of thinking. Of course you aren't. As a hero, aren't you supposed to resolve this in the best way possible? How is the best decision the one causing the one you love suffering?

But so far, this is all you've got. It got you somewhere, didn't it?

"I get it, your way of thinking." You whisper, eyes cloudy, lip bit in frustration. "I understand it works, even though I don't like it."

But...

"My apology," You say, standing straight and tall. "When the time is right, when it comes the time you mean it, I want a heartfelt apology from you."

A sigh from Katsuki, mouth opened in protest, in confusion, but you stop midway.

It's okay to want things. It's okay to ask. It's Kacchan, he'll understand.

"Your intentions are always for the best, but don't tell me how I'm supposed to feel Kacchan." You say calmly, eyes flickering to his face. "You took my property and you gave it to someone else. You hid things from me like I was an extra you'd just met a week prior. You doubted me, and that hurt." You say, letting yourself feel.