CROSSROADS

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Fantasia sat in her loft, listening to Beyoncé's newest album. She took a sip of her Merlot. Fantasia picked up her fork. She placed a piece of her Godiva chocolate cake into her mouth, a present from Kendall. He knew how she loved Godiva chocolate cake. She looked over at the chair holding her birthday gifts a little black box from her mother and father, a large box from Zaria and Nick, and even Kendall sent a small Tiffany box. That box made her smile. She knew that eventually they would be all right.

She bothered any of them Kendall and Zaria had offered to take her out on the town, but she wasn't in the mood. She had a text box and voicemail filled with birthday greetings but nothing from the one person she wanted to hear from. Fantasia stared at her laptop until her eyes began to blur. She took a deep breath and press the sleep button. Screen popped on the website she visited still present. TMZ blog site sent through her body.

Mercedes comes out!
Super hot supermodel Mercedes makes a public declaration of her sexuality with Jocku cover girl, Taraji P Hanson. After paparazzi asked if they were an item the couple decided it was better to kiss, then tell by sharing a very public smooch for the cameras. The two laughed then left. What a way to come out of the closet. Way to go Mercedes. We can't wait to see more of this super sexy duo.

"happy birthday to me." Fantasia said to herself as she stared at the photo of Taraji, kissing the gorgeous model. She scrolled down to the other images of Taraji and Mercedes laughing. Fantasia tried to remember when she had seen Taraji smile the way she was in those pictures. She couldn't remember a time.

Beyoncé's song "to most wanted" began to play. Fantasia thought about Taraji Her heart ached. Fantasia didn't want to leave the house. The mall and magazines were covered with photos of Mercedes and Taraji's Jocku campaign. Since the outing Mercedes and Taraji were the hot news. Taraji had only moved on, but was dating one of the top black models of the time. Fantasia knew she couldn't compete with that. She missed Taraji more than ever.

her mind drifted to Jonica and the last night they spent together. After Derek had nearly choked her with his sloppy tonguing she had realized that there would be no more men in her life. She wanted the softness of a woman, the tenderness of the touch that ignited her and all the right places. John had been right there waiting.

Beyoncé's soul voice saying the words to the song Fantasia sighed. she wanted to be able to say she was ready to move on like Taraji head. But was she ready? Fantasia thought about all she had and Taraji through. She thought about what she had put herself through. She deserved to be happy. She deserves to have someone special in her life.

Beyoncé hit the bridge and Jonica entered her mind again. her growing feelings for her neighbor wouldn't go away. Could she possibly love another woman the way that she thought she loved Taraji? Jonica smile entered her mind. She thought about the times they had been together. She blushed, thinking about the attention Jonica paid to her. Jonica made her smile and laugh, even when she felt like she would never laugh again. Why was she fighting something that had become so real to her? What was she waiting for? The smile. The easy way Jonica made her feel. Fantasia realized that she missed Jonica. She hoped she had and pushed her away.

Fantasia put on her fuzzy slippers. She knew she didn't look her best only dressed in a Victoria's Secret pink pajama set, but she didn't care. She walked out the door without thinking twice. Fantasia's heart began to beat fast when she heard Jonica yell "I'm coming!" her knees, began to shake as the sound of the dead bolt unlocked. Jonica open the door in a pair of baggy lounge pants in a black white beater. Jonica took a step back. "Fantasia."

"today is my birthday." Jonica's wide eyed expression crushed Fantasia. "I didn't know." ... "I know. I just... it's my birthday and I haven't been so depressed in my life." tears filled Fantasia's eyes. She blinked, causing a teary river to flow down her face. Jonica wiped Fantasia's face. "Fantasia don't cry." she put her arms around Fantasia. "everything will be OK."

"will it?" Fantasia pulled away from Jonica. "I'm a mess. I couldn't even tell my mother I was pregnant and that I lost my baby. How am I supposed to tell her that .. I might be gay?" Fantasia walked further into the apartment Jonica followed.

"Fantasia, all of that is your personal business. You don't have to tell anyone if you don't want to." Fantasia turned back toward Jonica "I'm a coward. I'm afraid to be honest with people that I love and I keep losing them because of it." Fantasia lowered her head. A single tear fell to the floor. "no wonder she didn't want me anymore."

Jonica rushed over to Fantasia. She held her by each of her arms. "Fantasia listen to me. What you're going through I can only imagine how hard it has to be for you. You were willing to give up your whole life for that girl and she let you go. Only a fool would do something like that."

Fantasia's eyes met Jonica's "Why are you so wonderful to me I don't deserve it."
"no Fantasia, you don't know how much you truly deserve."
"Jonica I really think you are an amazing woman. You have been great to me and I've treated you like..."
"you've treated me like a woman who is going through one of the most difficult times in her life. You've treated me like a woman who is trying to find herself. I understand Fantasia. I told you that before I'm here for you just let me be here for you." Jonica Pleaded.

Fantasia put her hand on Jonica's arm. "I'm not sure what's going to happen with me. I really can't tell you if I'm gay, straight, bi or whatever. But sitting upstairs by myself, I realized that I didn't wanna lose you too, but I just don't want to hurt you." Jonica smiled. She helped both sides of Fantasia's hands.

"Fantasia I told you in the beginning that I am here for you. I understand what you were going through. I've been there before. I want you to stop worrying about hurting me. If that happens, I will be OK. I'm a big girl." Jonica winked, causing Fantasia to laugh. Jonica rubbed her hands up and down Fantasia's arms.

"I don't deserve you."
"Ever think that we deserve each other?"
Fantasia stared into Jonica's big brown eyes. Her hands were trembling in her heart was racing. Fantasia took a deep breath her body warming up. "are you sure you even want me with all of my issues?" Jonica's lips curved upward.

"Fantasia, you just don't get it. Ive wanted you since I saw you at the airport. That shit hasn't gone away. In fact, it has only grown stronger. But I do want you to want me to. Can you say that you do?" Fantasia nodded her head. Jonica Smirked shaking her head. She pulled Fantasia in closer. Fantasia could feel Jonica's cool hit her ear "say it." Heat was now a forest fire. Fantasia held onto the sides of Jonica's wife beater. Her heart was pounding. " I want you to."

Jonica pulled her clothes. Fantasia close her eyes as Jonica's lips met hers. She felt an electric energy, fill her body. Jonica scooped Fantasia into her arms. She carried her all the way to the bedroom. Jonica kissed her passion into Fantasia Let Jonica's hands explore her whole body. Jonica slowly poured Fantasia's pants off, pushing them to the side.

Fantasia looked into Jonica's eyes. she could see how much Jonica liked her, it was written all over her face. Fantasia closed her eyes as Jonica tongue kissed her in her thigh. She felt a strong sucking sensation. Jonica left passion mark.
"now you belong to me."

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🩷 TBC ITS BEEN ALOT OF BS GOING ON TODAY AND I HONESTLY DONT HAVE THE MENTAL ENERGY TO FIGHT . MUCH LOVE TO EVERYOBE THAT SUPPORTS ME