A Universe Called Us

Prologue

"Leave!"

It's the first time he shouted on me. He never shouts. But now he did.

I couldn't think of a word kasi napako 'yung paa ko kung nasan ako. I knew he was angry. But I could see the regret in his eyes immediately after that. Na parang nabibigla din siya sa nangyayari.

"I'm sorry. I said, leave Sy." He said softly.

Naglakad siya papunta sa harap ko. Hinawakan niya 'yung mga kamay ko. I saw a tear from his eye. Then another one fell. And another one again. Until I couldn't see his eyes anymore. His eyes that made me fall for him. His eyes that comforted me. His eyes that will never tell lies.

He slowly put my chin up. He forced a smile despite the pain that he feels. I know him so well. He doesn't want me to see him miserable. He cups my face.

"Please, leave now. I can afford to lose my life but I can't afford to lose yours. Stop being stubborn so please." Pagpapaki-usap niya sakin.

He can't afford to lose my life but he can afford to lose me in his life?

"So I'll leave then what will happen? How about us? After everything we've been through?! Wala lang 'yun lahat sayo?" I told him while punching his chest. Pero wala na akong lakas. Sobrang hina ko na.

"It's not important right now. Your life is MORE important! For goddamn's sake Sy! Just leave!"

Natigilan ako.

"N-not important? Really Knoa?" Asking him as tears began to stream down my face again.

Tangina.

Ang sakit.

"I can never give you the life you truly deserve. Our worlds are completely opposites in every possible way it can be. Your life will be better without me on it." He said to me while avoiding my gaze. Seems like if he looks at me, he might change his mind. He might change his words. He might change his decision.

But I know him. So damn well. He doesn't change his mind.

"You don't get to decide what I deserve! I do! And if I want you to be in my life, I will do whatever it takes. I will do whatever I have to do. I want you in my life and in all the lifetimes that I have. Please, don't let me let you go."

I felt his arms around me as I say those words. Like he wants to protect me from all the pain. Like he's protecting me from this painful world. This painful lifetime that we have now.

"Maybe in another universe. Maybe in another lifetime. We will be together. But now, we have to face the consequences of this lifetime. I'm letting you go right now. Now that I still can. You know I couldn't afford spending a second without you right?" He whispered to me. Sobrang hina na ng boses niya. Parang wala na rin siyang lakas lumaban.

Dahil una palang.

Alam kong talo na kami.

Alam namin na talo na kami.Pero nilaban namin. Kaso wala eh.

Masyadong gago 'yung pagkakataon. Masyadong gago 'yung tadhana. Masyadong gago 'yung mundo.

How can two people be destined to meet each other but never meant to be together in this lifetime?