Scarlett and Ryan's daughter

Sleep

Trying to go to sleep tonight is consisting purely of tossing and turning and flipping my pillows to try to get more comfortable.

Eventually I give up, just huffing and laying on my back to look at the ceiling.

It's times like these when I really wish I was little again, because I finally have my parents back, yet I feel like I missed that window of being allowed to want and need them.

I know if Rose or Cosmo couldn't sleep, they wouldn't even think twice about going to my Mom and Colin's room and just crawling into their bed, to be held and comforted all night.

But I can't do that. It doesn't feel like I can, or should want to as a teenager.

What makes things slightly easier for me right now is the fact that Colin isn't home, he'd been away for a few days for work, and so it's just my Mom in her room.

Deciding that I won't be getting any sleep here on my own, I first go check on Rose and Cosmo to make sure they're okay and aren't already with Mom.

I very quietly sneak down the corridor, where Rose and Cosmo's bedrooms are and very gently open Rose's door first.

I see her peacefully sleeping away, in a star fish position, I swear that girl can be crazy and her sleeping positions definitely reflect that.

I carefully close the door again, before turning to Cosmo's room. I stop myself for a moment feeling stupid for even checking that they're in their rooms, but I think I'm sort of looking for a reason to not go to my Mom's room as to not embarrass myself.

Yet once I open Cosmo's door, he's also snoozing away in bed. So, no more excuses I suppose. Besides the fact that I'll be waking her up and I don't want her to be mad at me for doing that. I'm not going to just crawl into her bed though, she might get scared by that.

I find myself just standing outside of her room. Not quite wanting to open the door, it's like a battle in my mind. Do I do it, or not? I really want to sleep though.

I give a gentle knock just in case she happens to be awake, but no surprise I don't get an answer. So I push the door open, and see her laying on her side of the bed, the other empty of course. She looks so comfortable and I feel really bad disrupting that, but I fear it's more strange if she woke up and I'm just stood staring at her.

I whisper "Mom.." as I slowly walk to her side, "Mom." I see her eyes flutter as she turns a little and squints her eyes. It takes her a moment to actually open her eyes enough to see me, but seeing as it's like 2am I don't blame her. "Y/n? Baby, what's wrong?"

Feeling incredibly stupid seeing as all that's wrong is 'i cant sleep' and it feels so childish to say that, i haven't answered her yet.

She shifts to be sitting up, looking at me with concern "what's wrong?"

Standing at the side of her bed still, i respond, "No nothing, I'm sorry, i shouldn't have woken you up."

Scarlett quickly grabs my hand, "Hey don't be silly, what was up? What made you come in here?"

I squeeze my eyes shut far too embarrassed to say I couldn't sleep and just wanted her.

I see her frown at me still not answering her, but instead of asking me another question she gives my hand a little tug, and moves to sit against the headboard. She whispers "Come here my darling."

She places me on her lap, in her arms, as my head rests against her chest and she just holds me while gently rocking us.

I feel her cheek rest on top of my head, as she rubs my back gently.

Disrupting the silence she asks "How come you're not sleeping, huh?"

Realising that I'm going to just have to tell her, i respond "I just couldn't sleep.. and I felt childish for wanting you."

She cups my cheek in her hand "Sweet girl, I'm here whenever you need me. You are always more than welcome to just come and lay with me if you can't sleep, okay?"

Without another word she shifts us to lay down properly, me still wrapped up in her arms. She presses a kiss to my forehead, whispering "Sweet dreams baby, i got you."

Closing my eyes, i feel a gentle hand stroking my face, across my eyebrows and nose, until I fall into a deep sleep- safe in my mother's arms.

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A/N hi guys!! It's been a while, but I wrote this quickly today🫶