One sided

Chapter 1

(blue shadow and iplaonmylapto96 are the roblox usernames)

   I wake up to ten texts from my friend, Levi aka Blue_Shadow on roblox.

Good morning elias
Wake up bro
Font forget we have school today
Dont*
Don't*
We also have a chemistry test today
I didnt study shit
So ill just copy your answers
You studied right?
Elias.

   He would have been failing of it weren't for me. Homework, lessons, answers, he gets them from me. I don't mind it that much. I'm glad I can help him with school. And plus, he's my friend.. and my roblox buddy! I love playing "Guess the drawing" with him! He's very good at the game and helps me win!

  When I get to the school gates, Levi is leaning on a tree. I can see his thumbs moving frantically. Probably playing roblox. Oof.. Blue_Shadow..
  I walk up to him. He raises his head and we lock eyes. Those nice hazel eyes.. He doesn't realize how much I love staring at them.. If only he knew.. If only he could replicate my feelings towards him.. Is it really that wrong to be gay? Is that big of a trouble to like your boy best friend?
  Levi has the same humor as a middle schooler; Rasist, homophobic and albeist jokes. I mean.. I say slurs too. They are funny. But it hurts hearing Levi, the guy I've been liking since we played roblox together, mock gay people. This just kinda proofs that there's no hope left for me and my high school romance. I guess I'll just remain at doing fake scenarios in my mind... I should do something better with my life..

"Yo, Elias! Quit staring at my soul!"
A light punch on my shoulder wakes me up from my inner thoughts.
"Ah.. right.. Sorry, were you saying something?"
"... Did you not sleep well? That up coming chemistry test fucked you up?"
"Um.. yeah. Let's go inside. The guard guy is already starting at us. And teachers might think we are skipping class."
"Damn. You might as well marry the school at how much you treasure it."
"What? I just want to get good grades to please my parents and to go to a nice university."
"Pfft— Just shut up.."

   We get to class before the bell rings. Our classroom is pretty spacious. A clock is
pined above the chalkboard. The walls are light blue and the floor was supposed to be white but it's so dirty that it looks gray. A cross is leaning against the window. Levi is always curssing God out. I told him multiple times that he loves him and that he should show some respect but of course he doesn't bother to listen.
   First period is English. We are seated two at one desk. Even though, we rather pass notes to each other that whispering. Teach Jones is very strict. He looks like he passed his 100th birthday but he has an amazing hearing. And still holds on some strands of hair.

"Psst!" I turn my head towards Levi. I give him a puzzled look. He taps his finger on a piece of paper with black colored words on it. I make a "o" shape with my mouth and turn my attention to the paper.
'Are you free after school?'
I look back at him curious. A smile creeps up on my face. Levi eyes me and then looks pointy at the paper. I pick up my blue inked pencil and write some words down.
'Ye why? Want to go to your place?'
I pass him the paper and look at the teacher, making sure he doesn't see us. We are at the forth desk, next to the wall. I can hear Levi scribbling something on the paper. His handwriting is kinda bad but I started learning how to read it. At first, I was taken aback from how wobbly his letters are but now it seems normal, looking at his writing.
   Levi passed me the paper back and started writing in his notebook what's on the board.
'Not really. Relatives are over and I wouldn't be able to do anything. Let's go to that park next to the ice cream shop. We can play roblox there'
  I raise an eyebrow at him. I mouth a "sure" and lend him back the paper.

   Levi and I in the park.. It would have been much cuter if we were dating. But still, playing roblox on the swings, having some deep talk/gossip while sitting on the bench, watching kids fall while eating ice cream; It all sounds nice!