Just a disastrous rest

15 (idk honestly, just 🏳️‍🌈 )

Jouno's pov.

I woke up, but this time, I felt a strange rush of energy, I wanted to get out of bed and run a lot, I don't know what was going on in that moment.

I looked at Tecchou who was still asleep, I wanted to get up, but I didn't want to leave Tecchou there, what if I just try to wake him up and tell him that I want to exercise? Wait that's ridiculous, he will look at me strangely, but still.

Jouno: Tecchou.

Tecchou woke up after hearing my voice.

Tecchou: what is it?

Jouno: I-I.....I..... Want to go out and exercise I have so much energy right now, I don't know why.

Tecchou: you can go if you want.... I'm tired....

Jouno: uhhh..... Okay, I'll go.

I hurried to change my clothes and go out of the house, I wasn't even hungry to have breakfast, I just wanted to get out.

Another reason because I'm going to go outside and exercise is because Teruko is going to make a yoga session to everyone today, and like, not thanks.

I started running around the place, it was not enough, I wanted to do something else, I was dying with anxiety of just not moving, what was wrong with me?

I went to the beach running, happy that no one was there, so I started running like crazy for a lot of time, I was doing multiple things, many exercises, running, I didn't want to stop.

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Teruko was with the others, in a yoga session, the others fucking sleepy not being able to move well at that moment, Tecchou now knew why Jouno went out.

After some time, Jouno came back, all sweaty, but not tired somehow.

Teruko: you're back Jouno! What were you.....uhhh....

Jouno: I'll go upstairs.

Jouno went upstairs with no more words, when he got to the bedroom, he started having a weird attack of anxiety, he started walking all around not being able to stop moving and just threw himself to the bed, he wanted that to stop, he needed to get distracted.

(Jouno being so me 💀💀)

After a while, I was still struggling with calming down, I was thinking of what could I do to calm down..... Hey, what about plank??? While listening to Encantada by Masa Works Design? Yup.

I started doing plank, I was going to do 4 minutes, just that, to see if I calmed down.

After finishing that, I was still anxious, I wanted to know what could I do to calm down, I was getting frustrated, why now? 

(the ADHD is ADHD-ing)

I tried listening to Ayesha, because listening to relaxing music makes me anxious and get worse than before (me).

I started listening to her music, it got a little bit better, and when I say a little bit, it's because it's just 5% of the frustration and anxiety.

I suddenly remembered something, if Tecchou sees me..... Oh fuck no, it would be so embarrassing...

I started doing breath exercises to try to calm down, no one can know that this happened, not like they can help me anyway, this is something that you recover from it with time, but fuck why now?.

I started to calm down a bit, trying to hard to not pull my hair and roll over the bed, I could sense a heartbeat coming closer, I got scared, and just grabbed my phone and pretended that I was okay while listening to music.