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I HAD JUST TURNED THIRTEEN
It was the summer I got my first girlfriend
When I started to cut myself
And spent half of my time wandering around town

I didn't sleep until I saw the sun far away in the sky
And cried every time I read the last page of a book
It was that summer I lost faith in graduating high school
It was the best summer of my life

I had just turned fourteen
She had broken up with me a while ago
I still cut myself
And I spent time with my friends

I didn't sleep until I saw the sun far away in the sky
And I didn't read any books
I couldn't think about graduating
It was the summer I got high for the first time

I had just turned fifteen
I had broken up with her a long time ago
I stopped cutting myself
My new friends and I went to parties

I didn't sleep until I saw the sun far away in the sky
And I started reading books again
I didn't think I would make it to graduation
It was the summer before everything got bad again

I just turned sixteen
I noticed this girl a few months ago
I started cutting myself again
My friends and I only talk about getting high

I don't sleep until I see the sun far away in the sky
And I cry every time I finish a book
This summer, I hate the thought of having to graduate
This summer might be my last

My name is Ivy and I won't turn seventeen.

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