Delgado Cousins 1: Anthony Wayne Delgado (To Love Again)

CHAPTER VIII: FEEL IT

Chapter VIII

Feel It

At hindi ko lang pala namamalayan that I was already growing closer and even relying on Millie more...

Magkasama kami sa trabaho at nagsasabay din kaming umuwi sa mansyon pagkatapos. And sometimes I wanted to eat out so I also invite her to have dinner with me mostly after work.

Pero para naman sa akin ay walang malisya iyon... And I only see Millie like someone close to me, or a friend...

But it wasn't just all that. And it was not all easy. Millie was a nice woman. And an effective secretary. Magaling siya sa trabaho niya at maayos din siyang maging kaibigan. She's a person that you can rely on to.

And I'm just not so sure when it all started... na parang nakikita ko na rin pala si Trina sa kaniya...

Kaya rin siguro mabilis na gumaan ang loob ko kay Millie because she somehow reminded me of Trina...

Hindi naman sila sobrang pareho. Physically they're different. They're both pretty but in their own way. Magkaiba ang ganda na mayroon sila pareho. But they are also both very beautiful...

Hindi ko lang din maiwasan na minsan ay maalala ko rin sa kaniya si Trina dahil sa mga bagay na magkapareho rin sila.

Pareho kasi sila na mahilig sa anime. At halos magkasing-tangkad lang din siguro sila na may mahabang buhok at pareho rin na maputi sa pagkaalala ko kay Trina...

Alam ko naman na magkaibang tao silang dalawa. Sinabi ko nga na hindi rin naman sila magkamukha, of course. Pero siguro ay nangungulila lang din ako kay Trina...

I'm not very aloof with women. I also try to protect them as much as I can. Siguro ay dahil sa frustration ko na rin sa sarili ko na hindi ko naligtas at naprotektahan noon si Trina...

And back when I was still working with the Zachmanns, my partner back then was also a woman and her name's Mika. And she was also very efficient. We do not talk anymore now and she's probably still with the Zachmanns. She's loyal to that family, at kahit bata pa siya. And I was like a big brother to her. Parang nakababatang kapatid na babae na rin ang naging turing ko kay Mika.

Sometimes I still think about her. But part of me moving on from the past, was also to cut my connections from it...

Naiisip at nag-aalala lang din ako para kay Mika na naiwan sa mga Zachmann. She was still young and she may have a better future kung aalis na rin sana siya roon...

"Sir, are you all right?"

Parang napukaw naman ako sa malalim kong pag-iisip nang marinig ko ang pagtawag sa atensyon ko ni Millie. We were at the office and she addressed me formally especially when we're working. Ngayon ay medyo natulala na pala ako sa pag-iisip ko habang nakaupo ako rito sa aking office desk.

Tumango naman ako kay Millie. "Yes, I'm fine. What is it? Is it time for my next meeting?" I asked.

Umiling naman siya sa akin. "No, Sir, it's actually already time to go home... And you're done for today." She told me.

Napatingin naman ako sa suot ko na wristwatch. I've been really busy these days especially with the business projects that I started in the company. At minsan ay hindi ko na rin halos namamalayan ang oras. Nagbuntong-hininga ako at muling bumaling kay Millie. Tumango ako sa kaniya pagkatapos ay tumayo na rin ako mula sa aking swiveling chair. "Tara na?"

Tumango rin naman sa akin si Millie. Pagkatapos ay sabay na kaming lumabas ng office of the CEO, ang aking opisina rito sa kompanya. Minsan ay parang hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon. Akala ko noon ay ganoon na lang ang magiging buhay ko at hindi na ako makakabawi pa...

I turned to look at Millie who was just also quietly walking beside me as we headed to the elevator.

Millie also helped me in realizing things about my life after all... She helped me into deciding on giving myself another chance...

Pumasok kaming dalawa sa loob ng elevator at deretso na ito pababa sa basement parking kung nasaan ang sasakyan ko. Millie have her own car, too. Pero minsan ay sa akin ko na rin siya pinapasakay dahil iisa lang din naman ang pinupuntahan at inuuwian namin.

"Let's have dinner out first?" I asked her while I also drive the car.

Bumaling naman siya sa akin mula sa shotgun seat. "Okay..." aniya lang naman.

And once again we dined in a fine dining restaurant. Ilang beses na rin naming nagagawa ito na kumain sa labas nang magkasama...

And then after we had dinner, instead of just going home straight, naisip ko pa na magpahangin na lang din muna kami sa malapad na veranda ng five star hotel restaurant.

It was already dark outside, madilim na ang langit pero maliwanag pa rin dahil sa mga ilaw dito and the city night light.

I relaxed myself a bit while I was there. Millie and I also carried some wine and liquor here. She's just sipping on her wine while I was with my kind of hard liquor. We had this after dinner instead of some sweet dessert...

I'm not a hater of sweets but I'm not a huge fan either. Si Millie naman ay ayos lang din dahil kumakain naman siya ng matamis. And I think that hindi naman talaga siya mapili sa pagkain.

And what one thing that I also like about her was that she always join me, I mean that just like right now when I said that I wanted to sip some liquor first here in the veranda before we go home ay pumayag lang din siya agad at sinamahan pa niya ako rito.

And I just feel relaxed around her. Tuluyan na talagang gumaan ang loob ko sa kaniya. I was comfortable with her, too. And maybe because I was already too comfortable with her that I ended up watching her and staring at her more this evening...

At siguro ay dahil sa iniinom ko na rin na alak. Because I can feel it... I felt that I was already looking at her too much tonight...

Napatingin na rin sa akin si Millie. At bahagya na rin siyang natigilan sa pag-inom ng wine niya nang mapuna niya ang paninitig ko sa kaniya. "Ant," She called me.

But I just went closer to her instead. I know that I'd just blame it on the alcohol that was already taking it's effect on me...

But at that moment it was as if I just didn't care about the other things anymore... And I just decided to continue to feel it, and to feel what I was feeling in that moment...

"Ant..." She just called my name again.

At unti-unti naman akong lumapit pa sa kaniya...

Until our face was just already a very few inches apart...