Delgado Cousins 1: Anthony Wayne Delgado (To Love Again)

CHAPTER X: CONTROL

Chapter X

Control

MILLIE

"Ant, stop..." But I ended up smiling, too, as we secretly kissed each other's lips inside his office as well...

And I can say that we're already getting used to just kissing each other's lips whenever we want to...

It was just kind of complicated at first, but then like what Anthony said that it's okay as long as we both want it... Then I think it's fine...

"Ah..." A slow and quiet moan already escaped my lips this time. When Anthony's kisses already traveled down my neck...

"Ant, you still have a meeting," I just tried to stop him by reminding him that, and to also stop myself, too.

Tumigil naman siya nang sabihin ko sa kaniyang tumigil na muna kami dahil may meeting pa nga siya.

"Let's have dinner later." He asked me.

Tumango naman ako sa kaniya. "All right..." I agreed.

And so after work we went straight to our favorite restaurant with the veranda—naging paborito na nga rin namin ang lugar na ito...

At pagkatapos naming kumain ay nagkatinginan pa kami ni Anthony. It was a hotel restaurant. At kahit wala pa man ang mga salita ay parang naunahan na rin kami ng mga paa namin na magdesisyon at pumunta na sa front desk ng hotel at kumuha ng isang suite...

I was still a bit nervous about it at first, but thinking that it was with Anthony then I felt fine...

"Millie..." He called my name gently as he kissed my lips and touched my skin...

"Ant..."

Then we ended up on the bed shortly after. "Are you ready for this..."

Tumingin ako sa mga mata ni Anthony at unti-unti akong tumango sa tanong niya sa akin. "Yes..."

And that's when we started undressing our clothes... Anthony helped me undress... And I also tried to unbutton his shirt with my even trembling hands...

Anthony stopped me as he held my hands that was on his chest trying to unbutton his shirt. "You can relax, Millie... I'll be gentle. I promise..." marahan niyang sinabi sa akin.

Pagkatapos ay tumango lang naman muli ako sa kaniya...

And I trusted Anthony with myself that night...

"A-Ant! What are you doing?" I gasped. At napabangon din ako galing sa pagkakahiga.

I just saw Anthony going down on me...

Ngumiti lang naman siya sa 'kin nang mag-angat siya ng tingin sa akin sandali. "It's all right. I have to prepare you first..." aniya sa 'kin na hindi ko pa gaanong naintindihan noong una.

I already reached this year and age. Pero hindi ko pa rin masasabi na may alam nga ako sa mga bagay na ganito. Sure I know about sex. But my knowledge about it, alam ko na pangbaguhan lang pa rin ang kaalaman ko sa ganito...

Nanlaki na lang ang mga mata ko nang inatake ako ng isang kakaibang pakiramdam habang nasa gitna ng mga hita ko si Anthony...

I felt new sensations when Anthony kissed me, but it's also different now... I can definitely feel the pleasure as well...

Nakaawang ang labi ko nang bumalik sa harapan ko si Anthony, and at first I even thought that it was kind of dirty... But then I was also the one who initiated to kiss him on the lips...

I may still be a bit naive when it comes to this, pero pakiramdam ko rin na parang may sariling pag-iisip ang katawan ko at kumikilos ito nang mag-isa. Maybe it was my instinct.

We kissed deeply... Anthony's tongue went in my mouth and as if searching it's inside...

Halos hindi na ako huminga habang hinahalikan ko siya...

"Ant..." I kept on calling his name...

He moved back to showering my jaw down to my neck and collarbones with kisses again. Then he gently sucked on my breasts...

Umawang ang labi ko...

"Ah!" I moaned out of a little shock and the pain when I felt his manhood was already in between my thighs...

Hindi ko pa halos namalayan na ganoon na ang nangyari dahil parang pakiramdam ko ay nanghihina rin ako. I felt weak but warm at the same time. Anthony's warmth had calmed me down and comforted me. Kaya naman ang sakit ay nakayanan ko rin...

"I know that it was your first time..." Anthony said after what we did, and we're just hugging each other on the bed now...

Nag-angat naman ako ng tingin sa kaniya at nagkatinginan kaming dalawa. Inabot niya ang buhok ko at nilagay sa likod ng tainga ko ang ilang takas na hibla.

Bahagya naman akong nagbaba ng tingin matapos ko siyang tingnan. "I've never been with anyone before, Ant..." I said.

"I know... But, you're beautiful, Millie. You really are." He told me.

Nag-angat muli ako ng tingin sa kaniya. At bahagya rin akong umiling. "I never dated before..."

"Why?"

I sighed quietly. "Wala lang... I was so focused on my studies and then I immediately worked for the Delgado companies after I have graduated..."

"Pero sigurado ako na may mga nanligaw din sa 'yo noon." Anthony said.

Nag-angat muli ako ng tingin sa kaniya at nagkatinginan kami. "I did had some suitors before... But no one had really captured my eyes..." I said while I was looking at him...

Nanatili rin ang tingin ni Anthony sa akin.

"Don't you regret what we just did... Millie?" He asked me.

Umiling naman ako sa kaniya...

I feel like I was losing control with myself when I'm with Anthony...

And how could I lose control...

Natulala ako sa harapan ng isang malaking portrait ni Donya Maria Delgado...

How... Why can I do all these things with Anthony...

I ended up sleeping with him...

Was it only because I just simply lost my control? At bakit ko naman hinayaan na mawala ang kontrol ko sa sarili ko... Hindi kaya dahil ang totoo n'yan ay hinahayaan ko lang din ang sarili ko kay Anthony...

And I just didn't want to control or stop myself anymore when it came to him...

I would be lying if I'll tell even myself now that I'm only doing it for Anthony's sake, at dahil sa akin siya pinagkatiwala ni Don Antonio. At na may malaki akong utang na loob sa mga Delgado—the people who raised me, kaya naman gagawin ko ang lahat...

But I would be lying if I say that... Because at this point...

Dahil ang totoo lang ngayon ay dahil unti-unti na rin talaga akong tuluyang nahuhulog kay Anthony...