We all have our bad habits am I right? I have 3 really bad habits, I bottle up my emotions,I hurt myself, and I apologize for everything. Why? Well I bottle up my emotions because I don't want to seem like I'm a selfish,stupid, fucking mistake, I hurt myself because that's how I deal with stress, and I apologize for everything because I have regret, y'know irl back in 5th grade I hurt one of my friends mentally and I don't know why she even forgives me, I mean I told her to go khs, I wasn't in the right mindset, I was sad and angry, I wasn't thinking correctly. Don't defend me I am a bad person, I don't know why people even admire me, I'm horrible, I deserve it, I deserve to get hurt, I deserve to be called a weirdo and a freak, I deserve it. Why haven't I done it yet? Am I that desperate? I have the bottle or I have something I can tie around my fan and hang myself, so why haven't I done it? To everyone who keeps on saying things will get better it won't, I've been thinking that lie for years now, things won't get better, but if I could to try to hold back I wouldn't be selfish, I'm sorry for being selfish, I'm sorry for only thinking about myself, I'm sorry Shadow, I'm sorry Pitaya, I'm sorry Pims, I'm sorry dead, I'm a bad friend, a bad person. Why do people think things will get better? Why do people believe in those lies, they are only lies, life won't get better, it only get worse. Y'know another bad habit I have? I basically starve myself, I only eat one serving even when I'm still hungry, I hate it but I don't want to be fat. Well, I'll continue venting but thank you to all who reads, I'm sorry for being selfish again.
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