EndlesslyPoetic 🧸

Unwanted feelings

in the middle of the night
in the village where all  my peace lays
him keeps on reappearing
in the center of my mind
reminding me of the few  heartbreaks
I just want to hide
embarrassed of my feelings
embarrassed of my own mind.
they can't admit that they're not right.
that they're unwanted feelings unwilling to be digged in
I scream from the bottom of my heart
to just stop,
to just stop being so pathetic
and a desperate girl
to think of new beginnings
instead of being stuck in the past
where my heart first shattered
and when I felt like I was always last
dreaming every day of an impossible love, a chance that the guy I thought I like would like me back
those unwanted feelings crashing through my whole being
making me feel like a fool
a fool who would always feel for a guy she doesn't really know
just because of a silly past that only brought her tears
a past where she was the only one present in a story that doesn't belong to her
hoping she gets the main lead in a love story that was never meant to be hers
meddling her way into it injuring only herself
those unwanted feelings how would they go
when there's nothing in my life that could replace those.