The Desperate Kiss

Chapter 3: Focus On Hero Work, Not Love.

Izuku Midoryia is eating in his dorm when theres suddenly a knock on his door. He walks over to the door and sees Katsuki Bakugou standing outside, who barges inside his dorm. "A-ah.. Katsuki.. what are you doing here..?" Katsuki looks around, finding nobody here he turns around. "I'm here to ask you something.. can I?" Izuku blushes a bit before finally responding "U-um.. sure.. what is it??"  Katsuki breathes in and out. "Would you like to grab coffee with me later on tonight??" Izuku blushes harder "I don't like coffee, sorry Kacchan.." Katsuki hesitates to say anything else. "Then what about dinner, Its all on me, i'll pay."  Midoryia hesitates for a moment. "yeah, sure. Dinner is fine, Ill just have to- Ah.. nevermind. What time would you like me to come??" Midoryia smiles. "I'll pick you up and we can walk to the restaurant together, be ready by 8:45." He says before winking then walking out the door. Midoryia blushes even more before calling Shoto to come over, who does agree. 

       When Shoto enters Midoryia's dorm, he finds Midoryia on the couch blushing heavily. "Why are you red..?" He tilts his head to the side. "S-sorrrrrryyyyyyy!! It's super hot. A-anyways- I called you to see if you could help me. I'm going out later at 8:45 and I don't know what to wear, so I called you to help, its okay if you don't want to help me, I understand you might be busy."          Midoryia smiles nervously. "Ofcourse i'll help Midoryia, if i were busy I wouldn't have come." He grabs Midoryia's hand, squeezing gently. "Oh, then sorry if I'm being a nuisance or anything like that." Shoto's expression hardens. "No such thing as you being one, now, let me help you."  

   After 2 hours, its finally time to leave. He opens the door, seeing katsuki there. He closes the door and locks it before he walks off with Katsuki to the restaurant. Once theyre there, they talk while eating, when finished, Katsuki stops outside the restaurant and faces Midoryia before leaning in to kiss him when suddenly midoryia puts his hand on his mouth and Katsuki kisses his hand instead. Midoyria stutters "I-I-I-I-I-I-I... I m-must g-g-go-! i-ill w-walk h-home-! U-um... T-thanks-! F-for d-dinner....!!"

    And with that, Midoyria walks off, leaving Bakugou alone. Wondering what he has done wrong, why he didn't let him kiss, did he not like him? No, he was blushing... Unless there was someone else on his mind. No. He won't let that happen. He wouldn't.
  
     Midoyria rushes into his dorm where he finds Shoto there waiting for him. Casually eating *cold* soba. Midoyria blushes harder. His mind is filled with thoughts, his heart racing fast. God, what the hell was I thinking?! He thought to himself, but interrupted by feeling a hand on his shoulder. It was Shoto. Midoyria looks up a him, realizing Shoto's pure beauty, he always knew Shoto was kinda hot, but when up close,  he realizes Shoto is much more than just "hot". And once again, he was interrupted again by hearing Shoto's voice. It was calm, soothing, peaceful. It felt like he was standing under a cherry blossom tree, the bright green grass swaying in the wind, surrounded by water, the river moving a slow, peaceful pace.

   "Are you alright? Your face is red." Shoto asks. "I-its fine!! I-I was j-just-... Y-you know... Um..." Midoyria stutters, his brain focused on thoughts, his eyes focused on Shoto's face, his heart focused on deciding if he really wants Shoto or Bakugou. "I understand" Shoto said while grabbing Midoyria's hand, pulling him to sit on the bed. Shoto pats his lap for Izuku to lay down on, and Midoyria, without hesitation, does so. He feels happy, safe, welcomed, loved there. It's quiet, peaceful, and he can finally get his thoughts in order. Midoyria didn't just have a crush on Shoto, he loved him. Meanwhile, Bakugou, he only has a crush, he doesn't love him like with  Shoto, Shoto is different." A crush and love is different" Midoyria thought. He wanted Shoto. He pushes any further thoughts to the side and closes his eyes. Falling asleep in Shoto's lap.

    The next day Midoyria wakes up in different clothes and he is laying on top of Shoto. He wants to scream, but couldn't. Instead, he blushes intensely and crawls to the foot of the bed. He then looks at Shoto's face. His calm expression. He moved closer to Shoto face and stares at him for a moment. He then leans down to kiss Shoto, but Shoto stirs and Midoyria instantly backs up. Shoto finally awakes to see Midoyria incredibly flustered face. "Are you alright, Midoyria?" Shoto asked. "Yes.. I'm fine." Midoyria replies. "Are you sick?" Shoto asks, reaching out to cup Midoryia's right cheek. "No, no, ofcourse not, just..... A little hot...." Midoyria replies, slightly leaning in his touch. Then, Midoyria gets out of bed. Shoto feels a pang of disappointment but brushes it off. Wanting to sleep with Midoyria in his arms a little longer. "I have to go do training with All Might soon." Midoyria says. "Can I come too?" Shoto asks. "No." Midoryia replies, his face stern and determined.

Throughout all of Midoryia's  training, he couldn't foucus, he made many mistakes, Shoto all through his mind. Midoryia sits down on the rock, All MIght approaching him. "Whats up today Kiddo? You've been slacking... more than usual." Midoryia sighs, his mind racing with thoughts of Shoto. "I just... I want to be a hero but I love someone... they... they won't... they... they won't get out of my mind....its frustrating." All Might's expression softens. He understands, I mean, the kid gots to have a life after all. "I understand. I was young once too. That's my job, to be here for you, and guide you. Kind of like a father. I wouldn't have it any other way than to be here for you and the other students." Midoryia smiles at All Might's words. He has never had an father in his life. All Might feels like the father he has never had. Midoryia hugs  All Might, his eyes filled with ushed tears as they stream down his face. "Thank you, All Might." 

Days later, Midoryia is in his bed texting Shoto, his feet kicking in the air, his face red and his eyes wide. Thats when Midoryia falls off the bed. Hes looking up at the ceiling with his phone held tightly on his chest. "I love him. I want him... I'll make him mine no matter what..." he smiles, his body raging with possessiveness at the thought of him being with another boy besides hit the thought of him with another boy besides him and his family. He has never felt this way about anyone before. He know this possessiveness isn't healthy, but he doesn't like the idea of sharing him. Where did this possessive attitude come from? He then gets a text from All Might to be ready for more training in 2 days. "Right... focus on work.... not a boy you love..." Midoryia says, a little bit of disapointment in his voice.