Ballet and Blades

Skinny Love

On Wednesday I rushed out of the house so fast. Thank God I didn't have school that day , just ballet. For the whole day. Once I got there we got straight to work. We had a new dance. It was a group dance to skinny love by birdy or Bob iver one of them. Unfortunately I had a solo to the chorus. I ended up breaking my toe. The teacher kept on making me dance even after I told her I hurt myself. She was the worst teacher ever I hated her with like a burning passion. I got so angry I took off my slippers an  three them at her face and yelled " now do u believe me! I broke my fxcking toe ok?!?!"

I called my mom and told her I needed to go to the hospital. My stepfather ended up picking me up and taking me. The car ride was long and awkward. We finally got to the hospital and I passed tf out . I woke up and my mom was there she was crying. I sat up and said " it's only a broken toe."

Every one did a nervous laugh . This is when everything got fxcked up: "Marilyn honey you have cancer".

"Oh ok" I said then passed out again. I woke some days later really confused and my hair really short. I was really scared so I started beeping for the nurse and yelling. They drugged me again. The next day my whole family was there and my bf and his sister was there also. Every one hugged me. Some of the girls whom I dance with were also there . I didn't want them to be there cuz they were bxtches. I threw my pudding at them . Teehee #sorrynotsorry . They walked right out. So looks like I have cancer. I'm gonna have fun dying . I'm gonna lose all my hair and look like a bald baby. Hopefully my bf will still love me. I'll just wear hats. I don't look good in hats!!!! How am I gonna post cute pics on the gram!!!??? How am I gonna post cute snapchats!!!!??? #firstworldproblems I have cancer and I'm over worrying about my life on social media. Ok let me just let that sink in. I.have.cancer. HOLY SHXT I HAVE CANCER!!!!!!! I started to scream "I'm gonna die, I'm gonna die!!!!"  Tbh I was scared outta my mind. But I just can't let anyone know that. The doctor came into my room. Immediately I asked " so how did I get cancer , Mr.doctor?"

"Well uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....." the question took him off guard.

"You suck at your job " I said.

"No I  don't but you suck at being nice " he shot back ,confidently I might add.

"Well you suck at comebacks" I said and shut him down. I liked him as a doctor. He wasn't intimidated by me. That's a first. Jk no one is intimidated by me. He did the usual doctory things then said " so how do I feel about this whole sitchiation (yep exactly how he said it)?"

"Tbh? I don't like it one bit. I wish this was a freaking disney movie so I could get a potion, turn  my mom into a bear , make this cancer go away, and live happily ever after in a castle and talk to mice." I said .

"Ok so you just got two different disney movies mixed up and I feel us famm." He said accomplishing the whole trying to be hip thing.  How old was this doctor? He was kinda cute I might add.

We talked about my illness for a while then he let me go to sleep.