Ballet and Blades

The Aftermath

So continuing what happened yesterday , after I quit that ballet class when I got home it was horrible. It went a little something like this:

"MARILYN!!!!! " I heard from the kitchen as I set one foot into the house. I was tired and I didn't care what was coming next. I walked into the kitchen where my whole family was waiting for me( including the horrible stepdad).

"Why the hell did you just quit the most expensive and elite ballet studio in the city?" My stepfather asked tapping his finger on the table.

"Weelll, she was going to kick me out for beating up other members who actually beat me up but she didn't believe me and I wasn't going to take her bs so I quit." I said quickly.

They looked at me like I had shxt on ny face. I stood there like nothing was wrong.

"Umm ok tell me why I shouldn't ground you." My mother said clearly annoyed.

"Because I did nothing wrong." I shrugged then walked off to my room.

"MARILYN PEARLMAN BRING YOUR ASS BACK HERE NOW." She yelled loud enough for the neighbors to hear.

"Yes mother?" I said as innocently as I could.

"You can forget your dreams of Juilliard because you just quit the best ballet studio in this city." She said.

"I never wanted to go to Juilliard. You wanted me to go because you wanted me to be the only one in our family to do something with their life after high school. I just want to life in the now. And the now is beat this cancer. But clearly you don't want me to do that because you are punishing me for something that I did nothing wrong in. You really have no reason to be mad or punish me because I am actually saving you money but you dgaf do you? You just want me to do something after school so I can get out of your hair so you can go fxck my doctor. " Ok time for a flashback: On my last doctors visit my mom left her purse in the room and me being a great detective looked inside the purse and found a used condom. I know you're thinking we'll she could have hooked up with your step father in the room. Exhibit A. Mr. Doctor had messy hair and my mother's lipstick on his collar and his fly was down. Exhibit B. Mother and step father have not frickle frackled in about 2 weeks due to work habits and simply she has "not been in the mood". Exhibit C. Doctor snuck out of my house Wednesday morning because step father came home from graveyard shift. CASE CLOSED. Flashback over.

" What did you say Marilyn?" My stepfather asked very confused.

" I said you wifey has been having in home visits from my doctor. In other words she has been having sex with my doctor." I said now regretting my decision to out her.

" How long has this been happening? " He asked on the verge of tears which was weird considering they were getting a divorce.

" For about a half a year"she said not showing any remorse what so ever.

" What?!" Everyone asked including my little sister who had no idea what was going on. I started to cry although this was all my fault in the first place. He was er still is my favorite doctor and now I have to see him everyday and know that he was the cause of a failed marriage. What If she was leaving my step father for him? Tbh I liked our little family. Now I basically ruined it. I went to the bathroom and locked the door. I looked like a melted wax doll. All my makeup was running it was horrible. I found my razor. I was so proud of being clean if that's what you call it. I brought the razor to my skin. I couldn't bring myself to drag it across my pale skin. I threw it in the trash and ran some bath water. I got in it felt so good to just relax and not have to worry. I sunk into the bath. I stayed in the bath for about an hour then drained the water. I grabbed the towel and slept in the bath.