Reckless (Ellie Williams)

trying to remember

(Trigger Warning for this chapter: Contains Self Harm)

Readers POV

uuugghhh my head fucking huurrrttsss. I sit up in my bed. My bed? When did we get home last night? I threw the covers off my body. And who helped me out of my clothes? I looked down to see I was wearing a t-shirt and some boxers. oh my god i need to pee. Slowly making my way off the bed and out of my bedroom. Jesus fuck everything is killing me.

The smell of bacon smacked me in the face as I opened my door. My stomach growled starting to feel hungry. Walking over to the bathroom, I look towards the kitchen to see Jesse in there cooking. Did he stay the night? I close the bathroom door behind me and do my business. Aw that feels better. I wipe my self clean and flush the toilet. Fuck that was loud, uugghh my head. I wash my hands and head out into the living room.

"AAYYEE LOOK WHO'S AWAKE." Jesse yelled from the kitchen, as I buried my head into the couch pillows. Could you be any fucking louder? "How you feeling over there? I just made some coffee, you want a cup?" ooooo yes. I sit up off the couch and rub my temples. "Coffee sounds lovely, thank you". Standing up and walking over to the bar counter in the kitchen. He slides over a cup of coffee along with creamer and continues cooking. A pile of pancake already starting to stack up on the counter beside him.

He's making alot of food, mmm it smells so fucking good. My mouth began to water at the scent that was now invading the dorm. "You mind going to get Dina so we can eat, she was supposed to be in here after getting dressed." As if cued, Dina groggily walked out of her bedroom in a big long sleeve button up. "I am in here." She sounds exhausted. Jesse slid her over a cup of coffee as she sat down on at the bar counter beside me.

Lifting the drink to her lips, she let out a satisfied sound. "mmmm, perfect. Thanks so much babe." Dina give Jesse a warm smile and kept drinking the coffee. A lonely feeling sept into my body. If only I was lucky enough to be able to love who ever I wanted. The door of the dorm opened and closed. Instead the universe made my other half, and displayed it on my body. The sound of a barstool pulled me out of my head. Ellie was now sitting on at he corner of the counter next to me.

Ellie leaned forward to see Dina, "You look like shit." Dina lifted her head from drinking her coffee to look Ellie in the eyes. "Well you sure now how to make a girl feel pretty." A laugh came both from Ellie and Jesse. He sat the pancake down on the counter along with the bacon.

Dina started to rub her head, "can you guys not laugh so loud, I think my head will explode if you continue." I giggled and little and laid my head down on the counter. "mine too." That caused Jesse to laugh even harder. "Serves you both right, what did you expect drinking that much." I lifted my head to see Dina shaking her head, "sshhhh I don't wanna hear this."

Jesse handed out our plates and let us serve ourselves. I grabbed just 2 pancakes and 3 pieces of bacon. Its best I have a light breakfast so that I won't throw it all up. I want to enjoy this! I tried to take my time eating my food but I practically inhaled it." Looking around the table, I seen that everyone else about did the same. "Damn Jesse, you gotta cook this more often." Ellie had spoke up causing me to look over at her.

Her eyes looked into mine when she noticed me move and a blush crossed her face. I felt a smile form on my lips as I turned my head away from her, seeing that Dina and Jesse had be caught up in their own conversation.