isn't it delicate?

safe and sound

trigger warning // anxiety attack

it was mid january and taylor was performing for the first time in a month tomorrow night. she took some time off to celebrate christmas and the new year. you two had such a magical time together and spent almost every moment with each other. you were staying at taylor's house tonight but she was feeling quite nervous for the show tomorrow.

"i'm so excited for the show tomorrow tay! as much as i've loved having you all to myself this past month, i miss seeing you sparkling up on that stage"

you say as you climb into bed, next to her.

"yeah i'm excited too"

she replies, unenthusiastically.

you snuggle down in bed next to her and look into her blue eyes.

you know her too well and you know that there's something wrong.

"you don't sound very excited. is something bothering you?"

you ask her as you stroke her hair.

"i guess i'm feeling anxious about tomorrow. it's been a month since i've performed."

you gave her a kiss on the cheek, not knowing how anxious she actually was feeling.

"you'll be perfect as always baby, don't worry too much about it"

you say trying to reassure her.

she doesn't respond and you can tell by the sad expression on her face that she was feeling really nervous.

"hey, i'll go downstairs and make us some tea, hopefully that will make you feel more at ease"

"that sounds nice"

she replies, giving you a weak smile.

you get out of bed and go downstairs to make tea.

little did you know, leaving taylor alone was a big mistake.

taylor's house was massive so the walk from the bedroom to the kitchen was long.

without you by her side to comfort her, taylor started overthinking everything.

soon her thoughts became too much and she started crying.

crying turned into shaking and before she knew it, taylor was having an anxiety attack.

you carried the mugs of tea carefully up the stairs.

just as you got to the door of taylor's bedroom, you could hear muffled sobbing noises.

you quickly rushed inside to find taylor shaking, curled up, sobbing uncontrollably.

you set the mugs down on her desk and quickly ran to comfort her.

you sat down on the edge of the bed.

"taylor, baby, i'm here. it's okay"

you say as you rub her back.

she's still crying and you're scared.

you've never seen her so upset.

"tay? what happened baby, talk to me, i'm here"

you say with a slight tone of panic to your voice.

you lay her back down on her pillow, hoping it would help her to calm down.

she stopped shaking but she was still crying a lot.

"it's okay my love, i'm right here"

you get into bed next to her and hold her close.

you can feel her heart beating, going way too fast.

you stroke her hair and hold her even tighter.

her sobs started to slow down eventually.

"i'll never let you go"

you say as she starts to catch her breath.

you two lay there in silence for a few moments, but you're still holding her close.

"don't leave me here alone"

she says, shakily.

"i won't, i promise"

you say reassuring her.

"do you want to talk about what happened? i'm not going to push you to tell me"

you say carefully, as you don't want to trigger her.

"i don't know what happened. as soon as i was alone i started thinking of the worst things possible that could happen tomorrow night. like what if i forget the words? what if i mess up the choreography? what if the fans are disappointed? what if-"

"take a breathe tay"

you say as she takes a deep breath.

"it will be alright baby, of course i'll never understand what it's like but i know you. i know you'll put in all your efforts tomorrow night, no matter what. and i know your fans too. they won't mind if you mess up. they love you almost as much as i do."

you kiss her forehead.

"i seriously don't know what i would do without you, Y/N. thank you so much for helping me calm down. i'm really sorry you had to see that."

"hey do not apologize. i love you. nothing will ever change that. i'll be here through everything, the good and the bad. in fact you'll never get rid of me"

she giggles softly.

"i love you even more"

she replies and she lays her head on your chest and you continue stroking her hair.

"just close your eyes, the sun is going down. you'll be alright, no one can hurt you now"

you sing to her softly as she falls asleep.

you kiss her forehead and whisper

"you and i'll be safe and sound"

taylor falls asleep with a smile on her face, feeling lucky and grateful for how you've helped her.