Niall Horan ff (English version)

All or nothing

*Niall*
After many days of pure desperation, we finally managed to get some songs ready. We couldn't give up now. Harry wanted to take a break in our career as a band but we had to give our fans at least one album and I think a break wouldn't even work we would end the whole thing instead. All or nothing! I don't need a break now. We needed to move on and stay together, thats what I think. Maybe a solo career would be good for all of us but to be honest, I don't see myself as a singer who can fill a whole stage alone. I need my friends with me up there and I'm scared if we'll take a break or end the band to build an own career that we'll lose each other, won't talk anymore and won't see us anymore.

We sat on the floor and put the songs for the album together so that we could present them the management. They waited days for us to bring something together but we couldn't make it. Now we finally wrote the last songs and we already wrote a few of them months ago. The album will get the name ''Made in the AM" and it describes how this whole thing felt like at the moment. Like a Monday morning in school. You're still so tired but you have to be good and no one cares about you. We were all so tired because of the stress we had every day since the band started.

"Okay 'Perfect' has to be in it. The song is great and I like 'Love you goodbye'", Liam decided and we all agreed. I like the songs aswell. I said: "I like 'Infinity'" and they all nodded. We had 10 tracks but we wanted to put 20 together so the management could sort some of them out. Louis asked "How about 'Temporary Fix' and 'Hey Angel'?" I put both songs on our paper stack. 10 minutes later, we had all 20 songs together and went to our team. We sorted three songs out and had 17 songs on the table and didn't want to sort out any of them. One or two of our team wanted to sort out a song but we didn't do it.

So we have 17 songs now, an album title, an album cover and a release date. The 13. November 2015. And with that, all of this will maybe find an end. That's what Harry wants. Louis an I were totally against the break and wanted to move on but Harry said he also thought tabout leaving the band. That was hard to handle for me. Liam couldn't take a side. We didn't knew how to move on after the album. Maybe we'll go on tour, maybe we'll have performances but maybe not. No one knew and that makes it so much harder.

*Jessica*
In the evening I lay in bed and thought about my tour. It has ended now and it made me sad but at the same time it was good to have time for myself now. My next performance is already in one week. It was a British event which never happened before. Many singers and groups are going to be there like Ed Sheeran, Rita Ora, One Direction, Sam Smith and many more. I were so excited because events like that are fun. You meet different artists you never met before or you didn't saw for a long time.

I looked through the songs I'm going to sing there and hummed them. I didn't like the order we planned and wanted to talk about it with my team so I made a reminder in my phone. I decided to sleep now because I were so tired I couldn't hold my eyes open anymore.

*Niall*
I woke up early in the morning and made myself a sandwich and a coffee, otherwise I wouldn't be useful today. Then I made my way to the others because we wanted to record our first song today even though we still had several months until the release day. We hardly got any breaks and had to work late into the night and then they expected us to be in the studio the next morning, ready to record our songs. Pure stress.

I sang my solo for "Hey Angel" and left the room again to get another coffee from the coffee machine. A moment later Louis came to me and said "Here you are. Are you ok? We have to record! Come on now" he ran ahead and I hurried after him. I thought I had a few minutes to drink a coffee but that wasn't possible today. By the time we're done recording the coffee will be cold anyway, so I had a few sips on the way and another sip just before recording and then I put the coffee on one of the tables.

*Jessica*
I was eating my breakfast when the doorbell rang. I got up and opened the door. My friend Katherine was standing on the other side of the door. She grinned at me and said "Hiiii" and sneaked past me into my kitchen. "Oh, can I have some of the scrambled eggs too?" I nodded because saying no wouldn't work anyway so I gave her a plate and a fork. We ate together and were as silent as graves. But when we had finished eating, I couldn't stop her from talking "The show was incredible! And you said that I didn't have to come?Do you know what I would've missed then?! Why didn't you tell me about the film?" "Because you can't keep your mouth shut. If I had told you, everyone would known afterwards. Besides, it was supposed to be a surprise" I told her. "Sounds logical. What are your plans for today?" She asked and I shrugged. "Great, then get a bag, some bathing stuff and goggles. We're going to the lake!"

When we finally arrived at the lake, we unpacked our things and lay down on our towels on the beach. We didn't really want to swim. We went to the lake to relax and get a tan not to get wet. I enjoyed the day with my best friend because  we haven't had many of those days lately. I've been busy with my tour and haven't been at home but now it's finally time to relax again.