"Letters.....where are those letters.."
"Did i throw them away...or did i give them to him..?"
"What did i write in them?"
"Did he saw my feelings...no, my wrong and perverted thoughts about him...did he-"
"FUCKKK..." Felix yelled as he suddenly woke up
"Fuck...what was i...." felix caught his breath as he felt a little sweaty
"I'm...." felix spoke to himself as he looked at his hands
"Right...i was asleep...fuck...was it a nightmare? Why am i...." felix calmed himself down
"I feel dizzy...because of the medicines i took..." felix sighed as he placed his palms on his eyes
"I miss hyunjin..." felix thought to himself
"I want him to talk to me and spend time with me like we used to, how can he forget all the time that we spent together? How can he forget that we were best friends?" Felix thought
"He didn't forget how filthy you were...did you forget about all those letters...those fantasies-"
"STOP...wait..." felix spoke to himself
"I'm not fully awake yet ahh..." felix sighed
"It's just these stupid intrusive thoughts....i don't need to hear these stupid voices in my head" felix thought to himself
A day later
"Why is everyone looking at me weird?" Felix spoke to himself as he made his way towards his dance class
"I think i look...okay?" Felix looked at his blue ripped jeans and black t shirt
"Do i look dumb?" Felix spoke to himself
"It's just my imagination" felix thought
"I think i look cool...?" Felix doubted himself as he brushed his hand through the strands of his hair
"Wh-" felix was about to speak again but got interrupted
"Hey...are you okay?" Wooyoung asked in a worry suddenly
"Yeah.. i am..thanks wooyoung, for helping me out the other day.." felix replied
"He didn't smile at me today?" Felix thought
"Well...nevermind that...i just..ah..you were talking to yourself right now...so i was worried.." wooyoung spoke
"Ah...i was just.." felix spoke slowly
"Don't worry...if anything happens again...you got me.." wooyoung spoke
"Thanks....let's get going.." felix spoke after a moment
"I'm not worried about that..." felix thought
As felix went to the dance class, he didn't see hyunjin around and didn't feel like interacting with anyone else. So he excused himself and went to the washroom.
"Am i....thinking too much?" Felix asked himself
"There's so much left..unsaid...and answers that i need to know..." felix spoke
"Is it really okay for me...to get into this stupid mess alone?" Felix spoke as he looked himself in the mirror
Suddenly, jay entered the washroom as he looked at felix in disgust.
"You caused me some trouble" jay spoke
"You're talking to me?" Felix responded with an attitude
"How about we settle what you started?" Felix almost chuckled as he saw his swollen cheek
