"What am i doing...?" felix thought to himself while crying
"What's all this madness... from the very beginning..." felix thought
"Why did changbin let you go like that? You still feel bad for what you started? Why do you feel the worse after ending it? Why are you so selfish?" Felix thought
"I hurt everybody and it's right in front of my face." Felix thought
"I didn't realise how strongly my words could have effected him, why had i always been so.. stupid...?Throwing out words like that because i felt like it, because i wasn't thinking about them, i was only thinking about myself." felix thought
"Hyunjin saw how selfish i was too..." felix spoke to himself as he sobbed
"How many times did i ignore the little signs...? His frustration towards me...his hidden anger...his unsaid words? It were for a reason..." felix spoke to himself with realization
"This isn't ok...i'm the one who has truly changed.." felix thought as he got up
Felix walked towards the bathroom. He looked at himself in the mirror, staring at his pretty frowning eyes, he then washed his face and sighed.
"I changed, the moment i started to ignore him back in high school, when he wanted me...i wasn't beside him." Felix thought
"I was jealous and selfish but i just masked it up with my feelings and... what all i did for seungmin...i thought i was being a good friend..." felix spoke angrily
"In the end...i only pushed him further away...he... must have been so confused..." felix thought nervously
"I'm the one who fucked it up..." felix thought
"I need to make things right...before it's too late.." felix whispered
Later
Han joined in, while felix was distracting himself and playing video games.
"Do you not like us or something? If you don't want to hangout just say it!" Han whined
"Hey...don't say that.." felix sighed
"I know that shit has been bugging you.." han spoke
"I only told you to stay away from them, why are you so-" han spoke but got interrupted
"I know han...i know you are concerned about me...and i am okay, you don't have to worry all the time..." felix sighed as he tossed the controller away
"Do you even know..that jeongin is being chased down? He can't even leave yet..and can't even meet us.." Han spoke sadly
"I want to help them.." felix thought
"He always says the worse shit to trigger those people off even more..." han whispered
"They are looking for us as well lix...but just because we kept it low, that doesn't mean that...they won't hurt us. Minho, hyunjin....and jeongin...might be on their radar, but so will we..be... if we're not cautious enough." han sighed
"It's dangerous...for all of us..." han looked away
"They are not going to leave us felix...i Don't want to scare you but this is the truth, those people we messed with keep coming back for us. Minho and hyunjin have been taking care of it always, while bangchan and changbin stopped interfering long ago.. for our own safety." Han spoke worriedly
"But i just don't know, that for how long they can...keep up, this time...it...just... feels really weird, i don't know why....but yeah...they will attack again...." han spoke thoughtfully
