I can't get into my mind
But I also can't get out
I am caught in a whirlpool of gray
Thoughts that are but are also not
Here for a moment and gone before seen
Dizzying
I don't know how to break free
I want to create
But no inspiration
Just feeling so useless
Real life is overwhelming
No creative thoughts in this swirl
Drowned out by the sounds of everyday needs
Then add loss, responsibilities, and emergencies
It's enough to make you feel nothing
Enough to push you off the cliff and into that deep dark gray whirlpool inside your mind
Turning your thoughts into nothing more than fish in the deepest seas
Needing to feel the light but not knowing how to reach it
Swirling so fast, not knowing which way is up or down
Enough to make you lose your breath and drag you down to the darkest depths
Where sleep for days and no interaction sounds like heaven
But it's another trap to keep you locked out of your own mind
This dark swirling whirlpool feels overwhelming
The undercurrents pulling you further in
Not sure how to swim anymore
