In the three weeks since my first shift at the strip club, not only am I making a shit ton in tips, I've also gotten closer to the staff . Who knew I could even have friends. Apparently these people think my bitchy personality is funny and entertaining.
I don't know about all that , but for the first time since my dad died I feel like I belong somewhere. For so long it was just Shane and I against the world , I'd do just about anything to protect and shield Shane from our crappy lives. So much so that I put my needs aside for him.
I'm truly trying to learn balance. I don't want to stop protecting Shane or putting his needs first but I also need to learn to put mine first too. I have to take care of myself so that I can be there for Shane and anyone else in my life.
Speaking of Shane , he just finished his junior year of high school . Well barely, it seems he's gonna need to attend summer school to acquire enough credits to be a senior next year. If not he'll have to repeat junior year. I really underestimated how bad me being away would have affected Shane. His grades and attendance really took a nose dive after I was sent to jail.
My goal is to have Shane graduate high school , if I can get him there. I hope to send him to college. I want so much more for Shane than a life of crime or dead-end jobs. The problem is Shane is a stubborn little fucker who is set on not graduating, but also doesn't want to disappoint me so he keeps going to school . While just not really putting in a real effort though.
Also in the past three weeks , Viper has been actively trying to bulldoze my impenetrable walls that I've built up so high to keep people out. I can't get the fucker out of my head. I refuse to live a life with someone who will actively cheat on me with some fucking club whores .
I want to be with someone who's loyal , and has respect for me. I want to be someone's everything. I want to feel like I matter. I want to be loved. It's been a very long time since someone has loved me and taken care of me . I know that Shane loves me but he's a teenager their quite unintentionally selfish. I give him everything but he doesn't give much in return.
I know he'll grow out of it , once we're out of the stage of me being caretaker and more of me being just sister , things will evolve. Back to Viper , I don't know what to think . He's nice to me , always asks how I'm doing. He actually listens and wants to know how I'm doing. It's confusing. He's a biker , they're usually selfish and just trying to get laid.
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VIPER ( HELLFIRE SOULS MC book two)
RomanceViper the enforcer of the hellfire souls Mc is a vicious soul who will go to any lengths to protect the ones he cares about whether it's his baby sister or MC brothers viper takes his job as enforcer Seriously Stevie McAllister freshly released f...