PEACE | nct dream

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december 16 2023

jennie walked, walked so much that her feet were hurting her, but she couldn't stop.
the pain that she denied for so long finally got up to her, she had to walk in order to forget it, clear her mind.
the same sentence in loop inside her head "parents to begin"

as she finally found a bench to sit on, she finally took acknowledge of where she was.
the highest point of the city where they lived, it looked so pretty in her eyes.
the same eyes that started to build tears, which she can't stop them to fall on her -already- reddened cheeks.

losing her mother at such a young age clearly, wasn't easy. she couldn't stop asking herself for years if she could've done anything, while she couldn't, nobody has a cure for cancer.

losing her father the same year, not due to a sickness but only due to him also broke her childhood.
since they were 15, the twins had to live alone, together. their father only giving them money for the rent and the food.

all those years, punishing herself, not eating anything so that her twin can eat full meals, school pressure...
all those years finally could express themselves.
loud sobs could be heard from her, the tears won't stop.

on the other side, one guy absolutely stressing out, is currently searching for jennie. he knew exactly how she could feel.

jaemin never really had a conversation about her parents with her, of course he had it with jeno, he still remember the day where the small boy told their friend group that his mother passed away.

jaemin and jeno have been best friend for so long, he followed the story from A to Z.
but right now, his concern wasn't about him.

there was this girl that he suddenly met, that turned the tables inside his life. everytime he sees her, his world light up, she changed him, in a good way.

the way they laugh together, the way that he could listen to her talk at every second, the way he is starting to grow real feelings right now, or just the way that when they are together, it's only the two of them. nobody, nothing can disturb them, they have their own bubble, and that's what is charming jaemin days on days.

his mind is only filled with jennie and nothing else right now, he doesn't know where she is, how she is, if she has eaten, if she is hurt physically, mentally, and it's driving him crazy.

while passing the streets, he noticed a convenience store, he thought it would be a good idea to get her things essential for the moment, an aid kit, banana milk, her favorites snacks...

after successfully buying those he went out again, walking with only one goal : find jennie.

the day is still running so it is kind of easy, yet where did she went ?

back to jennie's side, people passed by her, looking at the broken girl like she was crazy. tears still running asides, hands with blood that is not hers...
yet who would've thought that someone will reach out for her,

"miss, i know you're not okay so i'm not gonna ask that stupid question but like do you have someone to call maybe so that you can go back to your house or just have someone that you know besides you" said the stranger in one breath.

jennie looked at her with full surprises, it knocked back her inside reality.
"oh yes thank you im gonna call my brother, thank you very much have a great day" she responded trying to chase away the tears to the pretty woman in front of her.
"i hope you get better" responded the woman with a gentle smile, patted jennie's shoulder and handed her a tissue.

jennie bowed and then sat back onto the bench. she decided to turn on her phone. 99+ missed calls, oh boy when she gets home she's done. yet she feels like she needed to call somebody to say that everything is fine,

"oh my god lee jennie where have you been ? are you okay ?"

"no obviously im not okay, i just needed a moment alone to think, im at the highest point of the city, meet me there, im on a bench"

"im running"

a panting boy finally arrived at the destination she gave him.
"oh my god thank lord you're fine" he said embracing her. the two of them hugged like there was no tomorrow.

"jaemin im so sor-" her sentence was cut immediately,
"no don't say that you're sorry, i know it's hard jennie, she's an awful person that clearly is jealous of you, don't worry for having feelings, she really crossed the line." he said, cupping her face, trying to wipe away the tears.

she looked at him with so sadness, he also looked like he was gonna cry. so without a word, he just hugged her again, they stayed like this for a moment until she let go first.

"so when i was searching you i went to buy basic things, i took an aid kit so that you can heal yourself if your hurt, i took banana milk because you know, i know, it's the best, and i took your favorite snack of course my dear"

she looked at him with a different gaze, a grateful one, with her beautiful eyes, the same eyes he could get lost in. she still couldn't say a word.

"jennie, i don't know if you want to hear those things but im still gonna say it anyway. you know, the pain you're feeling right now will pass, i don't know when, i don't know how, but it will, just like the river of time. the good, the bad and the unknown will pass. the world took too many from you" he hugged her again when he noticed that tears rolled again on her cheeks

"im not usually like this jaem"
"i know, don't worry, everybody have a moment where they need to cry, it seems like you've really been filling up that emotions jar." tears were starting to soak his shirt.

"you're really strong jennie, there is something inside you that always make my heart flutter, is that i know what you've been put thought since the lost of your parents. yet you still live your life, determined to savor the sweetness life is about to give.
you refuse to let life take advantage of you and that's what i found amazing, you've know darkness, oh hell man a really massive darkness, yet you're here, offering your light to others" he said looking at the view they had, holding one of her hand with his right one, and his left one on her shoulder, holding her.

"that cunt really doesn't deserve the nose job i just gave her" she said jokingly between sobs, jaemin laughed at her foolishness.

she actually seemed to be a bit better, jaemin decided to not add on and to let hear feel whatever inside her mind with the beautiful view that they had.

they stayed here until she felt better.
jaemin stayed by her side all the time, when she was feeling slightly better they talked together, again losing each other in their words, eyes, in their own bubble, at peace.