The Girl with a Black Heart

Why.....

Justina's Pov ( her outfit in the photo )

I woke up as I heard my alarm go off, to my favorite song by Nirvana - smells like teen spirit. I sat up and did my regular routine and once I sat down to eat my pancakes, I decided to text Ethan, to come pick me up.

Me: Hey baby, idk if you finished getting ready or such, but you can come start getting me around 7:50 -8. Since now it's 7:45.

I didn't get a response until like 2 minutes later.

Him: hey babe, I'm very sorry but I can't take you today something came up. Take a cab or walk.

I read it, feeling kind of hurt. Yet I still tired to understand. Maybe he's ditching or a family thing came up. But why would he say for me to take a cab or walk though? That's weird..... and rude...

I shooked it off and decided to walk, but some how I started to feel a bad intention of something bad is going to happen. And now I'm kind of scared because when I have any kind of intention, it will always come true. Ugh, f.m.l. right now. I really don't need any situations.

I got to school at 8:00, on the dot and so I went inside to my locker like always, not caring about others. However, even if I wasn't paying attention to know..... it felt, wait no scratch that, everyone else was staring at me.

I got annoyed and rolled my eyes and started to walk down holding my book bag and my song book in my hands looking for the library. I turned to the first corner on my right and I bumped into a group of guys that where whispering about some chick. Ugh men.

" Oh, I'm sorry. My fault. Excuse me." I said, trying to go around. But then someones hand come and pulled me into the circle.

"Who the hell told you, that you can touc-" I got shocked of who it was, who pulled me in the circle. It was Ethan.

"B-babe?" I said, the whole group of guys started to laugh and so did Ethan. What the hell was going on?

"Wow, chick doesn't know what,' hop off my grill', ( yea, yea ik its hope off my d****, but I dont want to curse a lot in here.) means. So sad. " Ethan said, smirking at me. I got furious.

"You didn't tell me nothing like that! Get your words straight, or I'll do it right for you!" I shouted at him in his face. Then the group started saying 'ooo's', and instigatating.... idiots .

"Tsk-tsk-tsk, awwww look it's ok if you still love me. One day you will get over me. But just know, I already got over you, and you need to accept that." He said, hurting my feelings to the bone, but I still did not show a single tear. I then shooked my head.

"Babe, you ne-" I got cut off by some ramdom chick, going into Ethan's arms. She put her hand up and looked at me up and down.

"Babe?... sweetie, you would of thought." She said, looking at me up and down smirking. I sooo got very angry, that I punched Ethan in the face, one and one after the other, then once I was done with him, I took the girl by making her fall pulling back on one of her foots, and I then started to smash her head against the floor hard. I don't know what had got into me, but it sure feels so damn good to take my anger out. I stopped when I heard teachers coming and I ran outside of the school. I wasn't running home though, for some sort of reason I don't know. I was running to the place where Ethan had found for me. That place just really makes me feel better. I got to the place and sat on the rock and started to cry my eyes out. I never cried for any one like this. Why he couldn't just told me, he didn't feel the same way anymore? He broke his promise of not breaking my trust. And the promises from the promise ring he gave me. My promise ring...

I looked down at my promise ring and then at the water fall. Should I throw it away?.... nah, I'll just keep it.

Something told me I should keep it, so I just put it in my pocket, because even if I'm going to keep it, just seeing the ring makes me hurt even more.

I stood there for like 2 hours and a half, just writing and fixing some of my songs to calm me down. And once I finished 5 songs, and wrote 2 songs, I smiled through my tears, feeling happy that I accomplished more than what I had done.

I started to go back home, taking my sweet time. I know my mom is worried sick of me. On my way home, it started to pour again. Huh, I guess mother nature is having a bad day as well.

After an half an hour of walking, I finally got into my house, taking my shoes and putting my book bag to the side, grabbing my song book heading upstairs to my room.

I got into my room and saw my window wide open. Probably mom did that, when it was earlier, I thought.

I stripped off my wet clothes and rushed into an emotional quick shower. I can't stop thinking or crying of what had happened.....how dare he played me like that? But at the same time...... how the hell did I let him under my skin?.... I guess my lessons weren't learned from before.... you really can't trust no one....

I got out,drying my hair with my towel, and another wrapped around my body, but once I entered my room, I heard something moved in my closet and heavy breathing. I grabbed my trophy I got from my summer camp back in 2007, and went close to the closet. I took a step closer as I heard the breathing got heavier. But once I grabbed the knob.

"Justina!! Come down for dinner, and I wanna talk about something that happened at school! Are you ok?" My mom shouted from downstairs.

Fuck, I'm still in my towel. " Ok mommy! I'll be there in a sec!!". I then looked up and down at the closet that awkwardly and weirdly stopped moving and breathing heavily. I took what I need, and went to the bathroom to put them on. I was too scared to dress up in my room. Hey, you never know what's in there. That's when I went downstairs, had dinner, and afterwards had the talk/ lecture from my mother, but I don't blame her. I did this too myself for being a straight dumbass for falling for Ethan......I just really felt and thought we had something special going on.