Lost

twelve

It was now May 2013 and my birthday was May 21. I was so excited to turn 13 because that means I was finally a teenager. Ansley and I were broken up, but we talked regularly. She was my world and she mean't everything to me.

I thought she would be the same person I fell in love with, but everything was so different. She was such a bitch. Literally, she was so rude to me and she was always pmsing. It was something I chose to deal with and I wasn't going to leave her still. Deep down she was still the person I fell in love with, and I loved Ansley as much as I loved Justin.

When June 2013 came around, me and my mom had to move out of my sisters, so we moved in with my dad. Since I had a computer now, Ansley and I decided to Oovoo. I was so fucking excited because that is my girlfriend I get to see, on camera. When I saw her, my jaw dropped. She was the most beautiful human being I have ever seen. Her smile when she talked to me, her voice, her face, her hair, her everything was just so fucking perfect. I wondered how I got so fucking lucky. She was literally all that mattered to me at that point in our relationship. She made me so happy and she was all I wanted for the rest of my life. I really loved her. I fucking l o v e d her. I was in love. So, I told my mom.

I explained to my mom that I was bisexual and that I met this girl and I loved her more than words can explain. All my mom said was 'oy' and to this day, July 9, 2015, nothing has been said since. It's been two years and no 'how's Ansley?' or anything. But I guess that's okay, because now, I would break down telling her what happened.

Ansley and I were good and steady for about two months until a week before our one year, we broke up. I was devestated. We were so close to our one year, and we were broken up, what the hell happened to us? We fought so much and we broke up so much, it was getting so annoying and I'm pretty sure my friends felt the same way. They were sick of me crying over somebody who I kept taking back. It was so fucked up. I was annoyed with myself.
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