First Or Last

CH.01

Tongrak's POV

My first kiss felt like I was electrified by a little spark that happened between my lips and his. It felt as though I had it all.

My first kiss was amazing because it happened under the night sky full of stars twinkling in the night. Where all you felt was a soft little breeze of wind gushed through the air.

My first kiss was also my first love.

He was kind and a gentleman sometimes, he was beautiful, he was everything to me or so I thought, and all of that started when I was 20 years old.

I was just an ordinary guy living life doing what I needed to do to survive, I was going to work and then coming home, I was literally just doing what I needed to, but one day I chose to walk a different route home and so I ended up at a cafe, I ended up at a cafe that made me drool because of how nice the coffee smelt, how the fresh baked pies and bread smelt on the way there. How it was the first thing you could see and smell from just down the road.

It was a little shabby but peaceful cafe that was owned by a beautiful gay couple that was proud to be together. A love that I wished I had. They were the definition of a love story that worked out well.

Their love reminded me of how my first kiss was to be, because it was one of the happiest nights of my life and also one of the nights I started my first relationship with the guy I first kissed.

It's been 3 years now since that faithful night and I haven't been able to get rid of it for the past 3 years now.

It lingers so often that sometimes I think my first love still needs me, wants me, but mainly loves me most. But I had no longer been in contact with him because of how it ended and because of how hurt I felt.

We ended because he cheated on me with someone new, someone he told me was a cousin of his, but I should've known he was lying to me when they met each other every single night. I should have known that he was cheating on me, but I didn't until I walked in on them half naked on my bed.

I lashed out at him, calling him names, crying continuously and when I finally got him out of the room, I dropped to my knees and cried more.

I felt worthless, I felt like I just gave away 3 years of my life for nothing. I gave away 3 years of my life to be cheated on by my first kiss, by my first love, by the guy I thought was my everything, but then he wasn't.

When I finally got him out of my house and that not one thing of his was left, I moved, I left that house so quick that my feelings were locked for good. I pleaded with myself, telling myself to not get to close to another person again.

I broke into a million pieces because of my first heartbreak.

This cafe became my safe haven, and I befriended the owners and we got along so well, it was good to have friends so close to me but I still kept my heart locked because I didn't want to be hurt again.

The cafe owners and I became the trio of their little shabby cafe because everyday I was there, every afternoon I was there, this cafe became my place. And sooner rather than later they asked me if I just wanted to live with them, which meant I didn't need to work long hours just to pay my rent, I could do my normal hours, go out and party if wanted to or even just stay home on days I had off, I didn't have to ask for extra shifts just to pay my bills but I was so thankful that I was able to find this couple and befriend them.

I did end up taking their offer but there was one thing they forgot to tell me before I got there. It was that they weren't the only two living in their mansion, their nephew was here too.

It was them and their nephew and now me too, meaning there were now four guys living under the same roof.

Author.

Tongrak had been living under this roof in the mansion for some time now and yet he still hadn't met the other guy, it was as though he came and went from the house like the flash.

Back to Tongrak's POV

I never once saw this guy but the couple said his name is Mahasamut who was the couples nephew.

The couple in question are known as Kamol and Kim, they went into a business which is the cafe after they had been in a dangerous error in their lives. They were once known as the meanest mafia couple in the city of Thailand but since then they have left that part of their lives in the past and are now cafe owners of the most popular cafe in the city. 

For the past 2 months now I have been living in the mansion with Kamol and Kim and in a lot of ways they reminded me of my home where I grew up. Where I would smell the food from the mail box even before I stepped one foot inside but In another way, I know this isn't really my home. 

Maybe home is wherever I go now because I no longer have a relationship with my parents, so I've fended for myself since I moved out of their home and that was a year before I met my first love.

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Author.

One early morning Tongrak came home drunk, falling into the front door, walking in and knocking over everything in his way.

Which was the lamp on the desk by the front door, to the keys that were placed on the hooks on the wall, and then he moved towards the kitchen where he placed his bag down on the floor and took off his shoes and left them where he took them off, and as he was walking to the fridge he opened it up and pulled out a bottle of beer and started drinking yet again.

He then placed the bottle onto the bench and left the kitchen and made his way down the hallway towards a room which had the lights still on and as he tumbled into the door, it had opened up and without a second thought, Tongrak walked in, taking off his hoodie, pants and t-shirt as he was hot but he left his boxer on and then he climbed into bed, but what he didn't realise was he had tumbled in to Mahasamut's room instead of his own, his room was a couple more door down.

Mut - Hey! 

Tongrak had then slowly pulled the blankets over himself falling into a deep sleep.

Mut - Hey.... wake up, you are into the wrong room, your room is down a couple more doors. Hey!

Tongrak heard nothing from Mut, because all he did was turn around towards Mut and slowly snuggle into him, and instead of pushing the drunken guy away from him he let Tongrak cuddle him, which made Mut fall asleep too. 

Which also would have been the first time Mut had a peaceful sleep.

The next day rolled around pretty slowly but quickly at the same time and Tongrak woke up first at about 1 o'clock in the afternoon, and then he realised he wasn't in his room as he saw things around him wasn't his.

Then he noticed that he was snuggled into someone and he looked at the person and didn't know who it was, he did know that he was home though but when he looked at Mahasamut he didn't know who he was because they had never met before, but then it clicked.

P.Rak - Shit.... I stumbled into Mahasamut's room early this morning.

Mut - Yeah, now can you get up and leave.

When Tongrak heard that voice he immediately got startled.

P.Rak - Sorry.

Tongrak then got out of the bed and left the room and went back to his room.

Immediately he felt his headache come on and then the hangover which put Tongrak back to bed and he went to sleep for a few more hours.

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