Brand on Brow

No More Chasing Rainbows

As the greek mythology say, humans are created with 4 arms, 4 legs and a head with 2 faces. Zeus, fearing their power, splits them into 2, condeming their lives in search for their other halves. I've always known about this.

Trying to find my other half, after many relationships, I've always ended up curved in my bed, rotting as I look into the darkness, like a blood-sniffing shark. I would always ended up telling my partner, "I'm sorry I'm the one you loved, others would never love me like you again.".

I'm sorry for saying "I'm not good enough for you.", but it's true isn't it? I know you would agree, but you never had the guts to say it straight on my face, do you? But we both can agree that you have so much to do and I have nothing ahead of me but just like a lawyer defending their client whos clearly in the wrong, I've always bet on this losing relationship between all the people I've come acrossed with. Every time I'm around a partner, it is as if I'm walking on eggshells, I've never felt like the love they give me is enough. All the amount of love and dedication they gave me but I've never appreciated them but I keep wanting more and more.

I was feeling down my whole life. I realised, what's the point in living if I'm just gonna feel this way. I've never felt sad or happy, just up and downs.
"Why don't I start changing my lifestyle..?", I remembered muttering those words as if it was yesterday. So then, I walked out of my house, wore my coat and my high heels, ready to go out. "Maybe I'll find someone else that I could destroy and be destroyed by..", I joked about my life as I walked down the city streets. I saw a cafe nearby, I haven't had my breakfast yet so then I walked in to grab a quick meal and maybe enjoy a cup of coffee. As I finished ordering, I sat down, waiting for my order to be delivered. Waiting, I saw a boy walking into the cafe, he was beautiful, ethereal even.

I wanted him to come and sit down infront of me. I checked his fingers to see if he had a ring and to my surprised, he doesn't. "Maybe this is my chance, maybe I should make the move.", As I say these words in my head, the waitress came and gave me my order. I lost track of reality thinking about him. He's beautiful, but out of my game. He's too precious to be with a person like me.

After halfway through my coffee, I was shocked to see him sitting infront of me. He introduced himself, his name's Elijah, and he's a very hard-working person, he owns a bouquet shop, infact, he's a flower enthusiast and he specifically came into the cafe to find a partner. Out of everyone in the cafe, he chose me. He's not rich or anything he's just, normal but he has a very high interest in fashion. He had always love fashion. He asked me, what job do I work. I said I don't have a job yet. Why did I say that.. am I stupid? He's so gonna leave me now! I said to myself, panicked. He said it's fine and his job could provide for 2 person.

Time passes by, he said it's getting late and as he leaves the cafe, I ran up to him, asking for his number. He gave me it. I wished we could stay in the cafe forever, talking to eachother while I adore his beautiful eyes and his elegant way of talking. He's a very polite person, one who I always dreamt of. For the first time in my life, I felt motivated, motivated to start a job. I know it won't be easy but for him, I'd try anything for him.