𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓼 || Hyunlix

LCL 22. 🔞

Chat stop being mean to me :( 👹

TW: just read at your own risk, no promises.

YONGBOK'S POV:

Currently 3am and yet my eyes are still open. It seems that everyday becomes worse, but luckily for Jisung and Yujun, i'm still holding on.

I went with Seungmin earlier, had a few drinks but then Bangchan showed up. He's so annoying i swear,  he's so stuck up, its embarrassing, but hey at least Seungmin found another interest. I left after the first drink, i honestly didn't want to be there and drinking doesn't take anything off my mind, it just makes it worse.

I sighed looking down towards Yujun who slept on my chest, smiling. It's honestly shocking how light he is for his size, and he eats everything. He took fast metabolism a little too serious.

Fuck i miss him.... I'm trying to act like i'm not about to ball my eyes out right about now.

I gently set Yujun off of me and onto the bed, making my way to the bathroom. Just then i felt my face becoming damp. I seriously can't be distant any longer it's hurting me more than anyone could possible think.

That's it, i'm calling him.

Should i...?

I don't care i am.

I quickly picked up my phone, hands trembling, breathe hitched. I couldn't quite see yet, the tears took over me fully. My phone dropped to the floor, and so did i. This is too much for me to handle. Too many 'what If's' roaming in my mind. Too many thoughts taking over. I grabbed a few paper towels and dried up my emotions.

Man, i'm a mess.

Finally, the phone rang, im so nervous...I'd 100% understand if he doesn't picking up, it's very late for one...and for two....he might not want anything to do with me anymore.

But he answered.

"Yongbak-ah...? Is everything okay?" I could tell he was asleep from his voice.

"Hyunjin...you answered..?"

"Mm, i wouldn't... decline *yawn* or ignore your calls. So what's up?"

Guilty...

I could hear him waking up more, walking around his room.

I couldn't speak much, he'd know i was crying if i said anything, not like i could anyway, i have no words...Fuck Felix get it out.

"Felix-ya? Why are you crying?"

Damn, he's good.

"Can i.....can i come to you, please. I need to talk to you."

It was silence over the phone. The walking has stopped and his breathes was the only thing that was heard.

"This early?"

"If i wait any longer....i don't know what will happen to me."

There was another awkward silence over the phone, i can't stand this much longer, i'm becoming impatient.

"I'll be waiting."

I sighed in relief quickly grabbing my crocs and kissed Yujun goodnight. Sneaking downstairs, i turned off the voice controlled door that will sound once being opened. I honestly didn't want to wake my nosy mother up, i'll answer any questions she may have tomorrow.

It was some time before i finally made it to his house, the only light that was on was the one that was in his room, must've been the only one home. For the amount of time i've known Changbin, he's always the last one up and leaves on every light in the house.