𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓼 || Hyunlix

LCL 28

TW: heavy language, toxicity

YONGBOK'S POV:

Around 6:30 am, the alarm that sat next to the nightstand suddenly went off, reminding me to prepare breakfast for Yujun before school. As i sat up i looked over to see that Hyunjin wasnt next to me. I sat there confused trying to comprehend where he could possibly be at 6 in the fucking morning. I sighed remembering the previous night, how i decided to be a whore instead of standing my ground.

Now i have to deal with these idiots who are going to tease me knowing exactly what happened.

I want a taser so bad, it gets to a point.

Ignoring the thoughts coming to my mind about Hyunjin being gone again, i got up, put on a sweater and my pants back on, like the whore i am, and began to take the bed spread off the mattress to wash them. Another lesson i should add to my book.

Lesson 101: Face Hyunjin's charms.

Once i was done with laundry, i made my way to the kitchen to prepare Yujuns breakfast. To my surprise Jisung had already done that for me, thank God, i did wake up pretty late anyway. He's such a life saver.

"Goodmorning Junnie, and thank you so much for this Sungie, he would've been late if it weren't for you."

"Eomma! Morning!"  he smiled brightly. I ruffled his hair and picked up his spoon, feeding him some of his breakfast. I actually had no idea that Jisung knew how to cook but Yujun seemed to like it and that's all that matters.

"Dont worry about that, i saw you stumbling to the laundry room earlier and figured you'd need some help." Says Jisung, shooting an innocent smile in my direction and giving me a hug.

"Oh sungie what could i do without you, you've been more help than Hyunjin has been this whole weekend."

Jisung frowned at my words, and placed Yujuns dishes aside to take him to school. I gave him goodbye-kisses and thanked Jisung again for his help before going upstairs and straightening his and our room.

Not to long after, Hyunjin, Changbin and Minho finally arrived back to the house with a guest, that guest being Bangchan. Of fucking course. I sighed, this is really getting annoying. I want to be a supportive boyfriend but how can i be if i can't even be his boyfriend for 10 minutes.

"Minho, Changbin, what's up?" I say ignoring Hyunjin's presence since he was more into whatever was on Bangchans phone than my own existence.

Minho looked over at the two and shook his head, he knows, i'm sure of it.

Actually, i'm sure everyone has already noticed Hyunjin's sudden behavior, but no one, absolutely no one, knows the effect it has on me right now. I may seem like i'm pushing it aside, but i'm not. It's been hurting me in so many ways, i've been overthinking and i can physically feel my head throbbing from those thoughts.

What if he's losing interest in me.

What if he replaces me with Bangchan.

What if i'm not good enough for him anymore.

What if...

What if...

What if...

Fuck, what if i lose interest....

That's almost impossible for me anyway.

Finally Hyunjin came over to me with a soft smile, as much as i missed that i still didn't want to look at his face, three days since i was able to have a full on conversation with him. I may seem selfish and clingy but can you blame me? If you're in love with someone, shouldn't you want to be their main focus.