y/n's pov:
once i got home i ran straight up to my room and into my bed. for the next hour i lay almost motionless. i couldn't really cry, so i just stared off in deep thought.
my parents were out late tonight so i was home alone for the next 7 hours. i texted one of my closest friends, kasumi, to come over at 7. It was almost 6 so that would give me an hour to get myself together.
i first went to the bathroom to wash the tear stains off my face using freezing cold water. it was supposed to reduce swelling and puffy eyes after crying, but it didn't work as well unless i almost froze my eyelids off.
I decided to put my hair up into a loose low bun and then change into an oversized zipup that hung off my shoulder, exposing the lace from my bra.
i stared at my reflection in the mirror guiding myself through breathing exercises. i was so deep in thought i didn't realize kasumi was standing near the bathroom doorway until she knocked on the slightly opened door.
"y/n?"
i jerked my head back, startled by the close sound of her voice.
"oh my gosh did i not lock the door?"
"no, you didn't. i was knocking and ringing the doorbell for like 2 minutes before i checked the actual door. you never forget to lock the door so what's going on?"
i sighed, "clay, hannah, you know.. my biggest fear and insecurity?"
kasumi walked over to me to put her hands on my shoulders, "let's not think about this right now. you've been stuck in your own head, overthinking everyday for the past 2 weeks now. let's put a cap on it and have a girls night, okay?"
i nodded and kasumi dragged me back to my bedroom. together, we set up a small fort on the floor with pillows and blankets from my bed. kasumi had brought a giant bag, the one you'd use for sleepovers. inside she had snacks, dvds, a dvd player, face masks, card games, and a pack of my favorite gum.
"how'd you know to bring all this?" i asked her while staring at the full bag in disbelief.
she shrugged, "i just had a feeling tonight would be a sleepover kinda night."
"i also have a tv with streaming services you know? you didn't have to bring dvds with you."
"i know, but it's more fun that way. reminds me of our old sleepovers when we were younger," she smiled at me.
the rest of the night we hung out in my room braiding each others hair, the definition of girl hood, and watching netflix. we also brought up a bowl of popcorn and candy to enjoy while we relaxed.
we were a few episodes into watching the last season of riverdale when kasumi got a call to pick up her little sister after practice. unfortunately, she couldn't have left at a worse time.
right after she left, the doorbell rung and i figured it was just my parents. but of course, life thinks my relationship is a game and it was clay. what a surprise.
i opened the screen door and took a deep breath before facing him.
"y/n, can we talk please love?" he approached me, trying to touch my arm but i backed up. he pulled his hand away, realizing i was uncomfortable.
i felt tears start to brim my eyes so i looked away. out of the corner of my eye, i could see his expression soften into a look of guilt.
