Nowhere Kiss [ Haobin ]

4.

"Jiwoong.." Seobin uttered.

He had so much to say.

Why he stopped picking up his calls, why he stopped texting him back, the sudden coldness that came from him, the forced distance, those harsh words he said on the day he broke up with him.

Jiwoong just wanted to know one thing. Why? He begged Seobin to tell him what was wrong and what he did to mess up but the only answer he got was "I just don't like you anymore" These words pierced through Jiwoong's heart. He slowly let his hands go, in disbelief and uttered no more words. Tears ran down his face like waterfall.

Seobin left him there, all alone, even though his heart didn't want to.

Jiwoong just stood there, staring at him with blank eyes. Seobin suddenly forgot how to talk. His lips trembled, he found it hard to speak. He bit his lower lip, fighting the urge to not break down into tears.

What did he have to say after all these time? Why did he come back?

Seobin swallowed a lump down his throat and managed to let out a word.

"I.."

"If you have nothing to say then I'll leave, you're wasting my time" Jiwoong turned and made his way towards the door but stopped when Seobin grasped his arm weakly.

"Please..please hear me out." Seobin almost choked on his words. The tears that were fighting to escape from his eyes flowed down his cheeks.

Jiwoong let out a shaky sigh. He hated the fact he still felt for him. He hated that his heart hurt to see him cry.

His heart was broken by the person he loved the most, the person who lit up his world and made him happy, the person he wanted to spend his whole life with.

He does not know what he did wrong. It's not like he wants to know at this point.

But why does he feel bad? Why does he want to hug him and tell him, "I'm here, everything is okay now"

Jiwoong slowly turned back at Seobin and removed his hands off his arms.

"What is it? What do you have to say to me...after all this time?"

"I am so sorry. I didn't want to I swear. I..I was forced."

Jiwoong's brow furrowed slightly, in confusion.

"I told you that i lived with my father and that he was my the only family that I have left, right? But I never told you about how he was like and.." Seobin breathed out, "And how he treated me. I always came up with excuses that I hurt myself while doing this and that but it was his doing. I covered myself up every time I met you..and I pushed you away every time you wanted to get closer to me because I didn't want you see the scars in my body.."

Jiwoong's body froze upon hearing that, his heart dropped.

His mouth parted, wanting to say something but he couldn't utter a single word.

Jiwoong continued to listen to Seobin.

"I was an eyesore to him as if I was something disgusting. It has always been like that but I do get him. It was my fault that my mother died instead of me so I stayed silent and endured the pain that he caused me. I didn't know what happiness was until I met you. I loved talking to you , i loved being with you and eventually i fell for you. I loved life for the first time. It felt wrong because I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve love. I didn't deserve you. But I couldn't leave without you either. I was so happy that I totally forgot about my father and everything for a moment until he found out about us. I don't know how it happened or who told him. He was repelled and beyond furious. He beat me to the point I was numb and told me if I don't cut you off he's going to do something bad to you. I was terrified. I know how he was like. I could not let anything happen to you so I had to let you go. It hurt me so much to do so but I know you were way more affected by it. I'm so sorry hyung and..I still love you, so much. Please don't hate me" Seobin covered his face with his hands and cried.

Tears escaped Jiwoong's eyes as he listened to him. How did he not find out that something was wrong with Seobin? It has been obvious at times but why did he still believe all of his excuses?

A wave of guilt washed over Jiwoong. Seobin had to go through so much pain and had no one by his side. He should've stayed by his side even if he pushed him away.

Jiwoong pulled Seobin by his wrists and hugged him tightly, he continued to sob on his chest.

"I'm sorry i didnt knew. It's not your fault. And I don't hate you okay? I'll never be able to" Jiwoong spoke as he rubbed his back.

When seobin finally stopped crying, Jiwoong pulled away slowly.

Seobin gazed at him with his swollen eyes as Jiwoong wiped the remaining tears off his cheeks with his thumb. His lips quivered as if he's going to start crying all over again. "I'm sorr-" Jiwoong cupped his face and placed a kiss on his lips. "Ssh that's enough.." he whispered. That sudden action made Seobin gasp.

"Jiwoong you..."

"I'm not letting you go anywhere this time. Pack your bags, you're staying with me from today" Jiwoong said with a dead serious tone.

Seobin let out a chuckle.

"What?"

"You don't have to do all these for me and I live alone now so I'll be okay" seobin said with a smile.

"But what if he suddenly appears out of nowhere? You're not safe, come with me-"

"He passed away"

"...oh"

"He got severly ill because of his addiction and yeah..then I moved here in Seoul a few months ago."

Jiwoong held Seobin's hand and rubbed it gently.

"I met Hanbin after I got a job in this café. I was pretty shocked to see you today but I'm glad I got to tell you everything. It was killing me. If you weren't friends with him, I probably would've never get to see you again." Seobin said. He then looked at Jiwoong and murmured, "Jiwoong hyung can we start things over?"

Seobin looked at Jiwoong, his eyes were looking for an answer.

"..."

"Okay I shouldn't have that, sorry i wasn't thinking straight..ahh why would I..how shameless of m-"

"Yes"

Seobin's eyes lit up right away.

"Jiwoong..really?"

"Yes" Jiwoong said with a hearty smile and hugged Seobin again.

A/N- I swear this is a Haobin book :D