❬❦❭
❛ रह गये हैं जो तुझमे,
मेरे लम्हे लौटा दे,
मेरी आँखों में आके,
मुझे थोड़ा रुला दे ❜
❨ to me, whom i have left behind, im sorry. ❩
'✦ ˑ ִֶָ 𓂃⊹
i used to be told that being silent and reserved would bring peace.
so, i stopped talking, laughing, and smiling. i toned down my emotions and became a new person. but now, i feel like i have lost myself.
it feels like im not me anymore, as if i am meeting a whole new person, whos not even a human.
when i look in the mirror, i see a stranger staring back at me. its scary. scary to the point it might torn me apart.
but now they complain that i am too quiet. they say they miss my old self, but why did they pressure me to change in the first place?
i feel trapped and lost. i have forgotten who i truly am.
people say they are your family, they wont do anything which hurts you. but right at this moment, i feel like i cant hurt more.
where do i go?
where do i seek solace?
is it possible to escape this misery and be me again?
i am just lost.
i want to be home, i want to be me. is it possible?
i wandered so much into the new path to myself, that I have forgotten the directions to my actual self. I am lost and trapped in a misery, i dont think i can ever find my way back.
can i escape this labyrinth of confusion anytime soon?
will i ever be able to break free from this prison and rediscover the person I once was?
i yearn to escape, to be free from this suffocating grip.
can i ever find my way back to myself, or am I forever lost?
'✦ ˑ ִֶָ 𓂃⊹
❛ ख्वाब जो हुए हैं खॅंडर,
ख्वाब ही नही थे,
इक नींद थी नीम सी हाए,
खो दिया है तूने जिसको,
तेरा ही नही था ❜
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IKTARA. || ❪ A Diary ❫
Random❝Iktara: A Diary❞ is a heartfelt journey through personal musings and intimate reflections dedicated to cherished loved ones alongside personal entries to vent. ❬❦❭ - This offers a glimpse into the author's deepest emotions, expressed t...
