Bittersweet Strawberries

04: Confused.

Nathan's POV:

"No I don't have a girlfriend and Xandra is definitely not my girlfriend." He chuckled as he said that.

For some strange reason, I felt at ease. It's weird. I just met this boy, heck he even walked in on me doing it with a guy, but I still couldn't get enough of his cute and awkward nature. When he started crying, I felt my guts wrenching. I don't wanna hurt this boy. I'm going to be friends with Andrew and I'll help him out from now on. He could definitely use a senior for a friend, plus I could use some company too, not that I don't have friends. It's just that my friends are way too loud for their own good. They never leave me alone and honestly I'm the one at fault. I'm just too friendly with everyone.

Right now, I could only focus on Andrew. The setting sun only highlighted his features even more. I swear this boy has some sort of angelic aura to him, he just feels like the most innocent being on earth.

"Um, Nathan?" I heard him speak. His words snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Oh, hey. Right, so you don't have a girlfriend. That's strange. I'll be honest, you're really cute. It's weird for someone like you to not date someone." I said as I smiled in relief. I had no reason to be reliefed, yet I was. Everything around Andrew was strange for me.

"I just, I don't know..." He said as his features turned dark, a frown forming on his face. He looked scared.

"I'm sorry if I crossed the line, wimp." I said. Wimp, I like calling him that. It seems like he doesn't mind. It's a cute nickname that only I get to use.

"No, it's alright. By the way, we should get going." He said as he looked at the time.

"Right, I'll show you around." I said.

I took him around the campus. I gave him a tour of the various areas in our campus. He seemed to enjoy my company. He was mostly quiet while I was the one speaking. I loved it when he got excited about interesting things around the campus, for example, the water fountain. Yes, our campus had a beautiful water fountain. And that's where we sat down to take some rest.

"Andrew, did you like the tour? I'm pretty sure you did since I'm the one who gave you the tour." I said with a grin plastered on my face.

"I think I enjoyed it." He said while fidgeting with his fingers.

It felt so nice to have someone like him by my side. I wanna stay with him a little longer. I saw my watch and realized we still had 30 minutes left.

"Hey, Nathan. Can I ask you something?" He looked nervous as he said that.

"Go ahead, wimp." I took his fidgeting hand in mine, and drew circles on it. I do the same with my best friend whenever he seems nervous or unsure about something. It always helped to calm him down ever since we were kids. So I thought maybe it'll help calm Andrew down aswell. Andrew seemed to flinch a little and he gulped.

"Do you dislike gay people? I heard you call the guy slurs when I saw you." He blurted out.

I was taken aback by the question. I wasn't really homophobic or anything. I don't even know why I called gay people slurs, I don't really feel disgusted by them. If I was disgusted, I wouldn't fuck that guy by the fence.

"I'm not really homophobic, it's just that, I don't know." I said while I looked up at the night sky.

"What would you do if I told you I was gay?" He said in a shaky voice.

"Well..." I couldn't find the right words. Instead, I could feel myself leaking closer to him.

The world started to seem blurry. All I could see was the skinny boy infront of me, his features ever-visible even in the nighttime, as if the moonlight only exists to highlight his beauty even more. I couldn't help being breathless. The sight infront of me was worth a million dollars. The sound of the fountain beside us was only serving it's purpose of setting the mood just right.

Before I knew it, the distance between me and Andrew was less than a mere centimeter. His soft hand was in mine. I could feel his breath on me. His strawberry breath was making me want only more and more of him. I knew where this was going. But I don't wanna resist. I'm being selfish, I know. I am only taking advantage of the boy, but it's also true that he makes me feel special. In the short amount of time I've spent with him, I've only been drawn to him like a magnet.

Without giving it much thought, I slammed my lips against Andrew's. Moments later, I could feel him melt into the kiss. It wasn't like how it was with Sarah. Instead, it felt warm and real. Andrew's warmth created a tingling sensation in my stomach.

I cupped his cheek with my other hand as I deepened the kiss, earning a small moan from him. Our bodies were pressed against each other. It felt divine. But he pulled away slowly, looking at me with confused eyes. No, his eyes were filled with not only confusion, but also so many other emotions. I failed to read them all, and so he broke the silence.

"Nathan, um..." I could see he was confused. And so was I.

"Andrew, I don't know why I did that. I'm sorry if that made you feel horrible or anything." I shot him an apologetic look.

"No, but aren't you straight?" He asked me curiously.

"Yea, I am. But I don't know. Don't give it much thought, it doesn't mean anything." I suddenly snapped.

I could see the confusion and fear in his eyes. But I was confused too. I needed to get away from him. I couldn't do this.

"I'm sorry, it was an accident. I'm leaving now and you should too." I told him as I walked towards the parking lot myself.

I could see the boy on the verge of tears again, but I couldn't help him anymore. It would only mean harm for both of us. I'm not gay, and I'm definitely not gonna have a thing with Andrew. Right, I need to fuck someone. Sarah breaking up with me doesn't mean shit. I'm pretty sure I can find someone better in no time. Yeah, it's for the best.

I got in my car and went home. I took a warm shower and went straight to bed, no longer thinking about Andrew and the kiss. It's best if I don't think about it ever again. I'll try to maintain my distance with him from now on. Yea, I fucked up. I know I wanted to be friends with him but I need some space.

But then again, I don't really wanna be away from that boy. It's strange. I just met him, heck I even kissed him. It was stupid of me but, he makes me feel good. Maybe I should make things right. Poor guy's starting college tomorrow, he must be hella confused.

The fuck Nathan, leaving him like that in that state, how could you do that?  No, I definitely needed to make things right. I'm in my Junior year and that means I can help him out whenever he needs it. It's the least I can do to make it up to him.

And in order to fix things, I need to talk to him first and apologize. I'll go talk to him tomorrow if I get the chance. I don't even know if he would want to talk to me but it's worth a shot.

As the raging storm in my mind came to a standstill, I slowly drifted off to sleep.

-x-

A/N: Hiiiii guys, here's another chapter hehe. Wow, so they kissed huh. Poor Andrew getting caught up in this mess. Anyways, hope y'all liked the chapter, as always I love y'all and I appreciate all the support and everything. Stay tuned for the next chapter <33

ALSO, I HAVE SETTLED FOR A NEW TITLE. The original title was "Forever But Never". I know it sounds cringe and all, so I decided to change it for good since I reimagined the story itself. And the new title is....*drum rolls*...

"Bittersweet Strawberries"!!!!!!

Woohoo, I hope y'all like the new title, I still need to work on a cover tho. Gonna wait till my internet connection is back so that I can work on it.