Bittersweet Strawberries

13: Soon.

Nathan's POV:

-(Before the party)-

If the fact that it was Sarah who was throwing the party, who, mind you, is my ex, wasn't bad enough, Andrew denying to go to the party was worse. Because tonight, I wanted to spend time with him. I wanted to see him talk his heart out, just like he does when no one else is around. I wanted him there. So it saddened me alot when he didn't want to go. But I understand, he has his issues, and I wanna be as understanding as I can. Afterall, I like him and I want him to feel safe around me. I can't make him scared like the last time and fuck everything up.

After everyone left for their houses, I drove Xayla and Noah back to ours. We still had about two solid hours to get ready. Noah and Xayla told me Xandra would come to pick them up so I just left them be. I took a shower and put on some hoodie and jeans. If I'm being honest I didn't really feel like going to the party at all. But since everyone agreed to be there I just couldn't cancel last minute.

After a relatively short drive I made it over to Sarah's. The driveway, the house, the doorstep, all too familiar. She's undeniably my past, and I'll let her stay there. Afterall she's the one who broke my heart. All that love I had, all the things I did for her, how could she do this to me? Regardless, this isn't the best time to contemplate over these fleeting thoughts.

-(At The Party)-

As soon as I entered the house I was greeted with the smell of alcohol and loud music blaring through the air. Yep, this definitely was a party, I'd tell you that much. This is Sarah we're talking about. She KNOWS how to party. The amount of times she's thrown a party in a single month is insane. Welp, could you really blame her though? She has this enormous mansion all to herself. Well, since I'm already here, why not actually enjoy the party?

I made my way to the kitchen to pour myself a cup of booze. The counter had all sorts of alcohol just sitting there. I helped myself to some ambrosia and chugged it down. I also went around and greeted familiar faces. I might or might not have accidentally stepped in on my brother and Xandra making out, and they seemed very drunk. Welp, good for them I guess. Reminds me of the times I used to make out with Sarah like that.

Speak of the devil and she responds to your call. When I saw Sarah at the party I could feel myself getting anxious. I tried my best the entire time to avoid coming face to face with her but here we are. And the fact that the alcohol was taking over my system wasn't a good sign either, talk about horrible timing.

"I'm glad you're here, Nate." She said in her usual bubbly tone.

"Yeah uh I'm gonna go." I said bluntly and tried to make my way downstairs when she suddenly grabbed my hand.

"Nate, why don't you stay here with me for the night, just like old times?" She said seductively, inching closer and closer to me.

My face was burning hot right now. My member was feeling a bit too excited but I could feel this weird knot in my stomach which made me wanna throw up. I gently pushed her away and went downstairs. I needed to get out. This wasn't right. Being near Sarah wasn't good for me. Coming to this party was a bad idea. I don't feel good. I miss him. I wanted to spend the evening with him but instead I had to come face to face with Sarah.

-(After The Party)-

The alcohol was making me even more drunk. I somehow got out of the house and made my way to my car. I immediately drove over to Andrew's despite being very drunk. I needed him in my arms. I needed to feel his body pressed against mine. I needed to feel...him. Have I fallen in love with him? Is this what love truly feels like? If so, I'm definitely not complaining.

When he opened the door, all I wanted to do was kiss him right there and tell him that I want him. That his precious smile means the world to me. That talking to him, tutoring him and gaming with him gives me all the joy in the world. And I almost did, till I passed out. I remember kissing him on the cheeks and passing out. Shit. I almost messed up. I almost told him that I was in love with him. This wasn't the right time. Yes I wanna ask him out but I want him to make the first move. Because I want him to like me too. So yeah, I just passed out like that, very embarrassingly, and all I could do was mentally cringe when I woke up the next morning with a very bad headache.

I opened my eyes in an unfamiliar bedroom. My eyes were sore and my head hurt like hell. I couldn't even bother to get up so I just lay there on the cozy bed I was in.

"Uh h-hey you're up." Said a familiar voice.

"What, who, huh, where...am I?" I said confused and my vision blurry.

"C-calm down Nathan, i-it's just m-me. Andrew." He said with a small chuckle.

"Mm, hey." I said trying to play it cool.

"Hey." He said too.

I got up and pulled him onto the bed.

"W-woah what are y-you doing?!" He said surprised.

"Just stay with me for a while, please Andy?" I said desperately. I missed him alot and I needed him now.

"Um, s-sure." He hugged me back. We laid down like that for a while before he broke the silence.

"So I uh, m-made some breakfast for you. And I got s-some painkillers for your h-headache" he said.

"Oh uh you didn't need to. But thanks alot." I said with a soft smile.

I took the painkillers and then ate the delicious pancakes he made me. I really love eating sweet stuff in the morning. (Yes, the jock has a sweet tooth, what're you gonna do, fight me? Bet. Anyway). I devoured the pancakes in one go. He just watched me eat with a smile on his face. I couldn't help but feel relieved to have him around me.

"Thanks Andy, they were delicious." I told him.

"I'm glad y-you liked them." He said in a soft tone.

"Yeah they were actually very good. Uh anyways I should get going. I've already troubled you alot for one day." I said as I remembered what happened the previous night but I still pretend to be clueless.

"O-oh, uh, alright then. I'll see you tomorrow at college th-then?" He said.

"Yeah sure. See ya." I said as I made my way out of his house.

The day I confess my feelings to him isn't far away. I'll tell him soon how much he means to me and how much I adore him. I'll give him all the love he deserves. I've done him wrong once but I'll never do it twice.

This boy will be the end of me.

-x-

A/N: hey y'all, another rushed chapter oof. Anyways brace yourself for a rollercoaster;). Until the next one, peace.