~ Who are you? ~ A Mischa x Reader fic

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Posted- July 26, 2024

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TW- Panic attack and self harm mentioned

"O-oh uhm, hey Ocean." You say with a shaky voice. You look at her with wide eyes as you start to panic. Not having a single explanation for why you were so scared and nervous, or what the broken porcelain doll had to do with anything. Not wanting to seem like a looney you tried the first excuse that came to your mind.

"Was just, looking around. You know" Not only are you the worst liar in all of history, but that did not cover for the doll on the floor. Or why you were acting so spooked, even after the initial scare Ocean gave you just appearing behind you like that. Not hearing and steps of any sign of a person behind you. As you tried to lie to Ocean your voice continued to shake slightly. Your eyes drifted around the room, not wanting to look at Ocean in the eyes. You brought up your hand to fidget with the red tie around your neck. A wavering smile adorned your face as you tried to act as normal as possible.

"Yeah ... sure." Ocean responds, unimpressed. A sense of recognition goes over her face as she takes her first look at the doll. Suddenly getting quite nervous herself, she continued to ask you a question. "Is that your doll?" She pointed to the doll broken on the floor. The head was cleanly snapped off of its neck, after falling from the painting that seemed to have never been there in the first place.

"Uhh, nah. I was just-umm in here." You respond definitely not awkwardly or suspiciously. Not at all.

"You can take it if you want. I don't care." You say as you step towards the side. Trying to get as far as you could from the creepy doll. With each glance you gave it the more anxious and scared you seemed to get. You got as far away from the scene as possible. Walking toward the opposite side of the room and sitting down on a large box. Leaving Ocean to bend down and pick up the two pieces of the recently beheaded doll. "I'm just gonna take a seat real quick, s-sorry." As you sat you felt your sight slightly blur and your balance feel more uneven. Your legs almost giving out.

"Yeah, it's fine. Im um gonna fix this up and give it to a friend, I think it would make her really happy to see it." She grabbed the pieces and placed them onto the box where the painted canvas used to be before it disappeared. As Ocean slowly made her way towards you, you started to panic more. You stared down at your lap, clenching and unclenching you had while they shook more violently than they were before. Your vision continued to go in and out of focus. The air started to feel thicker. Making it harder and harder for you to breathe with each gasp. Everything felt muggy and uncomfortable. The air feeling hot and your uniform feeling scratchy. You started to feel sweat pool onto your forehead and you continuously scratched at your legs with your shaky hand. Continuing to get rougher and rougher with each scratch. You shifted in your seat continuously as your breathing got heavier. Your lungs heaved for air as it seemed unable to enter.

"Woah- hey hey hey. You're alright, you're gonna be fine." Ocean quickly rushed to your side after noticing the state you were in. The awkward space between the two of you disappeared once you started to panic. Ocean wasn't good with these things. She never was. Although her unwillingness to say it out loud, she knew she was a selfish person. Only ever really cared for herself, but she has been getting better at caring for others and being kinder. At Least she thinks she is.

She places her icy cold hands on your wrist, trying to restrain you from breaking skin. She gently rubbed her thumbs on your warmer hands. Trying to soothe you in any way she can think of. Her first thoughts were to stop you from hurting yourself and causing any harm to your body. The left side of her brain kicked in immediately as she quickly restrained yourself from harming yourself. The other way you could harm yourself was your incapability to breathe in enough air. Your blurring sight proved that if you weren't able to breathe normally soon, you would soon pass out.