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Log 4: Dreading Hokulani.

It turns out that Professor Kukui has planned yet another trip to Hokulani Observatory as he did last school year. What are we doing there? Doing exactly what he planned last year. To observe the Minior and to discover what secrets they have hiding behind those shells. This can't be good. I mean, it didn't end up going well at all last time. I can only wonder what would happen to Sophocles that night.

If he unlocks the forbidden memory, then.. I won't know what to do or how to react. I will be exactly like that scared 10-year-old I was back when the actual thing happened. All I could do was watch absolutely horrified. Along with shocked silence. But do you know what I could've done!? I could've been there for him! Especially since Molayne wasn't there for him. 

I always thought it was the incident that really caused Sophocles's Nyctophobia in the first place, but... If we were there to prevent the incident from happening, maybe he wouldn't have ended up the way he did. Maybe Molayne AND Me are to blame. I always get told to "not worry about it." But, how can I not!?

My own brother was suffering that night. I know I probably shared some of the suffering too since minior was my friend, but that gave me absolutely no excuse to slack off on protecting him the way I did last night. 

And people wonder why I like to protect him so much. As I've said before, it's because I want to keep anything like that from happening to him ever again. But I can't stop it from happening again because something always gets in the way of it! Such as these stupid trips. Please. If it weren't for Kukui.. Sophocles wouldn't have remembered such a thing.

I also heard that he didn't get any comfort throughout the entire trip there. Molayne didn't even help him! Just shot a few concerned looks at him acting like that would do something about it! Ever try saying "I'm sorry"? Have you said that to literally anyone ever!? Well, you clearly didn't say it to us! 

I wouldn't say I hate Molayne, he just needs to get his priorities straight. That goes with the rest of Sophocles's classmates in that situation. How could they care about a stupid, purple, and idiotic Pokemon.. over a human? I know the whole point of the trip was to teach them a lesson. I get that learning about death is important.

But Sophocles already learned that lesson! First-hand too! How do you think he felt then!? And the fact that you basically forced him to remember it? What really pisses me off is that they're going to do it a second time. Acting like that's going to do any good for us two. 

I already hate going to Hokulani Observatory as it is, especially since I have to see Molayne's stupid face when I go there. What if I can't protect him this time? What if my abilities just don't.. work?

Will I be able to help at all? 

Either way, I'm dreading this stupid trip. There's no way you can make me do this willingly! There's no permission slip in the first place. So I guess I don't have a choice. 

But my fear is still there. The fear of not being able to protect him for a second... hell a third time around of reliving the same traumatic incident.

Will I be.. useless?