The Little Things

Chapter 7.

Yearning for Reassurance

The night grows cold, and with it, my doubts grow louder. I lie awake, staring at the ceiling, questioning everything. Why do I feel like this? Why do I need so much? I wish I could silence these fears, these insecurities. But they cling to me, whispering that I'm a burden, that I'm too much.

I see others who seem content with so little, and I wonder why I can't be like them. Why do I need to feel your love so intensely? Why does the absence of your affection feel like a void, swallowing me whole? I wish I could be different, less demanding, less needy. But this is who I am, and I can't change that.

When you're not here, everything feels wrong. I replay our moments together in my mind, searching for signs that you care, that you love me. Each memory is a double-edged sword, bringing both comfort and pain. Comfort in knowing that you have loved me, pain in fear that it might not be enough. I try to hold onto the warmth of your touch, and the sound of your voice, but even these memories start to fade, leaving me with nothing but shadows and echoes.

I'm scared—scared of being alone, scared of not being enough for you. I wonder if my neediness will drive you away. I wonder if I'll wake up one day and find you gone, leaving me with nothing but the ache in my heart. I wish I could turn off this fear, but it grips me, tight and unyielding. The thought of losing you terrifies me, and the weight of that terror sits heavy on my chest, making it hard to breathe.

Maybe I'm asking for too much, or maybe I'm just human, longing for love and connection. I don't have all the answers. All I know is that I love you deeply, and that love makes me vulnerable and makes me yearn for your affection. It's a need that I can't escape, a part of who I am. My heart aches for your touch, for your reassurance. I need to know that I am loved, that I am important to you. Without that, I feel like I am drifting, lost in a sea of uncertainty.

So, I ask you, not out of selfishness, but out of love—show me that I matter. Show me that I'm important to you. Hold me when I need it, reassure me when I doubt, and love me with all you have. Because in your love, I find my strength, my hope, my reason to believe that everything will be alright. Your love is my anchor in the storm, my light in the darkness. Without it, I am lost. With it, I am whole.

Every touch, every glance, every word you say is a balm to my soul. When you look at me with love in your eyes, when you hold me close, I feel like I can face anything. Your love gives me the courage to keep going and to believe in myself. But when that love is absent, when I feel ignored or unimportant, it is like the ground has been pulled out from under me. I feel myself falling into a void, and the fear and loneliness are overwhelming.

Please, give me all you have, and I promise to give you all of me in return. Because when I love, I love with my whole heart, and all I need is to feel that love in return. I don't want to be a burden; I don't want to be needy. I just want to feel loved, to know that I am important to you. Your love is my lifeline, my reason for being. It is the light that guides me through the darkest times, the anchor that keeps me steady in the storm.

Without your love, I feel adrift, lost in a sea of doubt and fear. But with your love, I feel strong, capable, and whole. So please, show me that I matter. Hold me close, reassure me when I doubt, and love me with all you have. In your love, I find my strength, my hope, my reason to believe that everything will be alright. Because when I love, I love with my whole heart, and all I need is to feel that love in return.