I still see your shadows
In the darkened rooms
Of this broken house.
I talk to them sometimes
Pretend that you're still here
But you wouldn't fade away from me
As they do.
Right?
You promised
You promised.
This heavy silence
Is at it's worst at night.
Crushing me, suffocating me,
Slowly choking
All signs of life.
I don't think my poor old heart
Can shatter any more.
I try, I fail
I just can't sleep
I keep hearing ghostly footsteps
Echo down the empty hall.
They're still wearing your favorite shoes
The ones I gave you on your birthday.
They stop beside me
And I feel your breath upon my neck.
Cold spectral fingers caress my cheek
Sending shivers down my spine.
Whispering, murmuring, a gentle kiss
So familiar
So comforting....
" Knock it off"
I demand through gritted teeth.
My voice sounds wrong.
Am I going insane?
Memories plague me
As the presence leaves, stands,
Quiet, weeping by the door
And I cry with you.
"I'm sorry," you sigh, breathlessly,
"I didn't mean to go away
I never meant to pain you so."
I thought I saw your tearstained face
Still so beautiful
Reflected in the moonlight
And I bury beneath the blankets
Like the frightened child I am.
Trembling hands cannot muffle
The sad refrain
Of you softly calling my name.
I beg and pray for dawn
As each sweet note
Rips the raw gaping wound in my chest deeper
Wider.
At least in the brightness of day
No words can fall from those lips
And you can't touch me like that.
You're years ago now
I tell myself.
After all, you're miles away at this moment.
You're getting married next week
Out in California
To a guy
Who you loved much more than me.
" I can't help it," you'd said to me
That pretty face all aglow.
" It's not my fault it was love at first sight
It's not my fault our souls connected.
He makes me so happy and carefree.
I still like you. Always.
But I just can't deal with all of your issues
You're seriously dragging me down.
This is goodbye"
No one is here anymore
And no one will ever be.
The only thing living
Amongst these walls that are closing in
Is a deceitful apparition
And a once burning, passionate heart
Reduced to a hallucinating,
Crumpled wreck on the floor.
YOU ARE READING
From The Remnants Of Dreams
Poetry"And I will say my goodbyes some starry night and wrap you in the silver hues of moonlight. So when you wake up you remember me as a beautiful dream too surreal for your reality." - Someone I do not know.
