Hey comrades it's me the guy with

(12 stories 😳)
Um yeah COVID totally screwed with me I swear if I wasn't paranoid and board I would not be here.(Why is it relevant) Well comrades it's not but it's about to be like what 5 years!? I got 60 followers some who literally disappeared like ghost years ago without a notice even before Wattpad decided to break itself. I'm still the most confused guy around when it comes to story telling though if you ask my school I literally gave out long essays like nothing (when I was interested) So writing was always my number one talent despite my hand writing making people think otherwise I really couldn't train myself not to be sloppy because you know it was freeing you know school is kinda limiting. I'm a god damn adult with this issue but let's get off that.
I've got nothing to talk about I'm not rich I was definitely in a poor area hell my family was barely middle class. If you asked me what I remembered being crazy. I'd say seeing a house fire in my neighborhood but it literally wasn't that long ago. I had no father and at my age I got a confidence problem I did and still do a lot of what I'm told to. I'm a only child so I really was set up for being a introvert as soon as I was separated from my young extended family. School was a change I could accept because pal I was great not held back a single time though I wonder how much luck it took. It makes me feel a certain way when by myself how much should I take as good for me. I don't even know myself.
So 4-5 years of writing in-between school was kinda my big mistake my ideas were just put down and I did whatever I wanted with nothing making me focus. A real pressing situation I wasn't focused on really anything but what I could do with Naruto I remembered a lot from it and YouTube so I went to work on it deleting my first original story cause it was kinda too edgy and unfocused. But it was really fun seeing what few people had to say engagement had been the goal since day one yet I couldn't tell if I improved enough I mean I could write longer but what exactly was it for I experienced something and got an idea and just had to do it. But I think it's really showing with my new undertale stories. I knew about it from about a year and was watching comic dubs until I made up my mind and got it because what could make someone get so creative over it. Art is just like that I guess because I finally got to play it after almost getting grilled because it wasn't on a lot of shelves anymore so it's purely online stuff. After having the best experience with it being one of the few games I completed I just couldn't wait so I published my first story of it.
And now we're here because I don't know maybe it's because my life isn't moving as forward as it seemed in school Adulting is like in space you just float carrying peak expectations and goal but I'm starting to hate everything about it because I'm starting to understand escapism more. Knowledge is a double-edged sword that way. I don't think I inspired much so let's be honest here.
I'm still just some kid inside who has no idea what the hell he's doing because I don't think I've had a platform enough.
Oh uh next published thing will be Detached Heart comment whatever you feel like this seems like a waste of time. But isn't it interesting when you don't have everything figured out?
